stuckinmybed's Things

Guys im on my first year of College and its just the first week and im already so overwhelmed. I never even thought I would have lived this long to the point I'm attending it because I've always thought im gonna be dead before high school even finish. I mean I guess its a great achievement that im even attending college but it feels like a mistake already. I still don't know what to major in and I just picked random classes just to show my parents that im going to college and have a control of my life, but then they started to bombard me with questions such as "why don't you know what you wanna major in?" Or "why is your college so expensive?" Or "Everyone already picked what they have wanted to study why can't you?" Fuck i know its not the worst thing to ask since they're probably just concerned but it just gives me more stress. Entering a new environment with tons of people, not knowing what direction I would take, my friends not being there its all getting in to me. Especially seeing everyone knowing what they wanna do, having dreams and such it makes me feel so uneasy. I know that everyone also suffers with the same problems as me or probably even worse im not stupid (maybe). I just don't know what to do with my life back then and still even now. I dont know what i would be like in 5 years, all i see is me being dead or being a bum or homeless or just fucked up. I feel like I should just drop out but im gonna try to push more through it. im planning to talk to one of the counselors and plan ahead. Wish me luck hope I don't kms lmao.

Is this me just playing the victim card? I think so. Am I going insane? Maybe. What do you guys think?

I'm in Cali and it's so fucking hot when I shit my neck is literally sweating. The sweat is not even from me constipated it's from the fucking heat. Are we finally all gonna die? Is this the end? Bro someone just kill me I can't take this heat no more

Me and my family migrated to another country for the sake of a better future but how come that the moment we got here we fell apart lmfao I'm so tired of hearing arguments my dad would also threatened to hit me and my mother thankfully he hasn't done it yet but i am scared when he blows up. Back when we were on our country we used to be happy (?) Even when we were struggling. Now I feel even more distanced with them. Before one of my parents got here they had a accident that to the point they had to be operated, the thing is I didn't feel a single thing. Am I a bad person? I feel so tired lmao I don't even know what to do with my life, no dreams no talents, no job and no aspirations. Every time they mentioned what I'm gonna be doing in the future I'm just reminded that I'm useless.

Chat give me some advice make it as honest as possible I can take it

Bro why am I seeing soooo many fucking tktoks about this site again??!?!? And all the comments don't even try to play out the name it's just full on out there.. like did they forget what happened to thjs like 3 years ago?? Nahhh it's happening again bro omfg. This site is viral for some reason and ppl think it's funny like stfu!!

Have yall seen those videos on tt on like filters that goes like "which BL character would I get with" or with the username like Hua changes wife or something, like THEY BE FORGET THAT THEY ARE GAY!! LIKE ITS CALLED BOYS LOVE FOR A REASON BITCHHH anyways it icks me the fuck off, like no dooshik won't even look at you or no you can't make them straight