
People hating on Haesoo's decision to break up probably has never been in a shitty relationship that makes them hate theirself :<
This entire chapter reminded me of my argument with my ex, we broke up because I can't feel at peace dating someone (and getting serious about our relationship) from a different religion. Lol sorry if this ticks people off, but yeah religion is kinda important to me and I was young and in love with the idea of being in love.
I do like him (love him maybe at some point) but could never shake the wrongness in our relationship. There's this guilt eating me up inside and it really corrodes my mental state, I was terrified telling/counseling my family about it because they would never approve of my interfaith relationship.
I realize I had to break this relationship because I was simply not peace, I was anxious, was crying and couldn't get hold of my emotions. I changed a lot, friends realized I became slightly unhj her and a bit prone to polar emotions but I just can't shake it off and end the relationship. I really like him but the wrong feeling inside is killing me too. I felt the biggest guilt of accepting his love when I couldn't fully commit to our relationship because of this guilt and its confusing me very much.
Until somebody told me to save my self first even if it turned me into a 'bad person'.
So yeah I finally gathered the courage and the strength to break it off. He was upset, devastated and broken. I was a bundle of anxiety, stressed and my skin itches all the time but I remember that to save myself, I may have to be cruel to other..
And now we dont talk to each other anymore and I'm at peace with that.
It hurts guys, it really hurts knowing you love him but couldn't/don't want to be with him, because the longer you're with that person, the more you'll hate yourself.
There's only two types of comment. The confused one (by Harada veteran) and the "aww so cute!" (by innocent child of summer)