I'm not against rape in yaoi but "i dont like it but why do i feel this way" is so damn old
It makes sense though... He doesn't want it, but he's reacting to the physical stimulation.
This part of the story actually holds truth. This is fictional but victims feeling good from rape is a very real thing and often the reason why victims feel ashamed after the fact. They feel like if they didn't want it then it shouldn't feel good to them and leads to victimblaming themselves. But it's true what the above commenter said, it's only a natural physical response to stimulation
I thought it was meant more emotionally. Like he wants to hate him entirely, but he can't
What? I don't think so... The entire manga the uke is trying to tell him he's just "not his type", so i don't imagine he secretly IS his type. It even shows him pick up "uke types". It seems that he just got drunk and then everyone at that bar let the guy that he was just loudly rejecting take him away incapacitated.... Naturally he was tied up and raped till his body naturally started to feel good and now he is confused because he felt good.
That's a good answer.
Although I must say that just because he isn't his type doesn't mean he can't feel anything for him. Also, usually when the Uke hates the Seme, but his body responded to him, he would first think about anything but love. I've read enough Yaoi to say that this pattern happens too often.
When did the uke think about love? Wasn't he just assessing what is going on with his body?
"Why do I feel like this? I'm supposed to be hurt-"
It could be meant physically and emotionally.
I was going to make an argument about it clearly just being physical, but since this is yaoi, despite the context clearly not allowing any room for the uke to fall in love i could see the plot completely throwing context out the window and him somehow falling in love with the guy that he'd been actively rejecting who kidnapped him while he was drunk, tied him up and raped his virginity away. Though i think both you AND the manga should stretch before you reach for that ending. -said jokingly, but really thinks that ending would disrupt the flow of events-
Despite this being just one chapter only, the plot would never completely go into that direction. Even so, a better ending would be if the sex was consentual from the start, even if he would have been drunk af to say 'yes'. But that would need more plot development, a Tsundere and much more time. This rape scene was here to speed things up. Not the best method, but there's much worse out there on the dark side of Manga.
I understand. But I meant, in general, yaoi like this often have the ukes falling in love after the rape even without redemption from the seme.
Starting with subin looking back to check if Hyunwoo chased after him, that's a very natural thing to do. He loved him for a long time and there will ALWAYS be a part of him that wants Hyunwoo to love him back.
Why can't they be friends anymore? Although Hyung's jealousy plays a part, I think it's more because as long as they stay together, Subin will keep looking back. Even if he has no intention of going back, he will keep checking if Hyunwoo is looking for him. And I think he wants to stop doing that cause it's not gonna help him move on at all.
Yes, he is not completely over him right now. And yes jumping over to hyung may not be the best life decision. But it is a start. He has finally found courage to let go of a painful, fruitless love. That's a wonderful thing.
I was also sad with Subin leaving Hyunwoo for good. That line about not needing the guitar hit me really hard. But I can't help but feel like its necessary.
Maybe Subin x Hyung's relationship looks forced and maybe their relationship isn't the best looking relationship there is. But keep in mind that everything is still fresh and they're still learning how to be in a relationship with each other.
Moving on is always bittersweet and new beginnings aren't always perfect.
I’m crying in the club right now
That hit me right in the feels
┗( T﹏T )┛
Fuck you summarized that so well. And you're right, moving on is going to be tough but it's for the best.
I love this. All of what you said is why I think this is such a good story. To me, it just seem so much more realistic in the way it depicts love. And that's why I enjoy reading it so much. I am all for team Subin X Hyung and for whatever trials they will inevitably go through as all couples do. But I think they have a better basis for understanding each other now. And I have hope for them in the future. :)
Currently ch20 「spoiler alert」
Ever since I realized it was her brother and not her boyfriend, I've been laughing whenever he think about how he's betraying Mari but I'm getting impatient with all the misunderstanding!!!! and like at ch20 when he says break up with Mari blah blah I thought yesss finally its revealedddd but noooo he's just thinking of saying it ahhskskksfncjc
OMG EKIHITO MY TRASH ALPHA MADE A CAMEO
I wonder if he's their biological nii-chan or like a cousin?
Ekihito is from the main house, while the twins from the branch. So they are probably cousins.
I see. It totally makes sense that theyre related tho.
I dont want him to end up with anybody I just want him to stick around and be the clever sassy bitch he is (づ￣ ³￣)づ
although I dont agree with how he handled it, I could very much sympathize with the ex lab partner
envy does feel like there's a big black haze behind you and grabbing at your heart wahhhhh
one moment they're okay and everything's fluffy and then suddenly they're fighting again and i cant breathe huuuuwaaaahh
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA BEST ヾ(☆▽☆) Its like they're competing for the biggest trash chara