Cocoon of the Heart
the complexity and depth and seriousness in this manhua is literally like nothing i've ever seen before, and for that i have to say it's BEST, though the story was seriously disturbing to me at times due to rape, suicide attempts, and tons of self-harm and depression. there's no way this retelling does it any justice, but it's a masterpiece in its own way. i would say it veers on the side of babying mentally ill characters, always portraying them as in the right and deserving of help. but i think that's the message of this manhua. to bring attention to depression and mental illness and telling us that we need to treasure those people as well. even when people sink to their darkest moments, they can be saved. good art too, a definite plus! so basically seme hates uke cuz he thinks uke's sister and his dad were having an affair and that's why they both died in a car accident together. honestly it's never revealed clearly why they were together that day, but it seems it was not because they were romantically together. i suspect the author changed plots midway. the focus seems to initially be a hate to love relationship, but somewhere in the middle the author went into full mental illness stuff... so seme and uke have to start living in a dorm with 2 other people. seme super hostile to uke, but uke kinda dead and just taking it cuz he's so depressed and has no feelings, all drugged up too. first big event is a school trip and they are rooming together. seme gets super angry and attempts to rape uke. seme pulls back but uke is like i'm used to it and implies that he sells his body to this doctor guy. uke then says it's ok if seme wants to do it cuz he doesn't care either way? at this point seme already has some unhealthy obsession with uke that's turning from hate to desire, so he does fuck uke. then he takes off uke's wet clothes and sees uke's self harm scars all up and down both arms. uke is so upset and this is where the story turns to mental health. for some reason after this happens uke is like completely broken and he can't go to school anymore. the issue i have with this story is that so much focus is given to the mental health awareness that big plot points in the story aren't given enough attention. like things just suddenly happen and you only realize later like what that's it? it was a major plot point but they aren't going to talk about it anymore? and major events are kinda just glossed over.... after uke stops coming to school seme goes to find uke. finds out uke is somehow connected to his past as the boy who called him one time or many times as a child. confusing here and it should have been a big deal that the author just glossed. author also shows them both realizing this fact, but they never get together and actually discuss them finding out their past connection. seems weird we would not see them discuss it, but we do see them acknowledge it later so i guess they spoke about it more off screen?! just didn't feel like enough was communicated about their past reveal. anyway, while this was unravelling, seme found uke at his childhood rundown house and brought him to a new apartment that seme started renting cuz he's the son of a rich family. he brought uke there and promised to heal uke from his trauma and stuff. but honestly kind of weird cuz uke seemed relatively okay, just dead inside before. the rape thing might have set him off even more but idk. another confusing point cuz uke was not so bad but i guess he was hiding it. there's some serious drama about uke's old doctor being an ex-bf of uke's dead sister. and the doctor being obsessed with the dead sis and kidnapping uke to dress him up as her and pretending to live domestic life with him as her replacement. then seme comes to the rescue and the doctor tries to jump off the balcony but seme saves him. thank god never see him again. then we see uke opening up to seme some more after that and seme going to talk to doctors to get help for uke. once uke feels a bit better he goes to the hospital himself and starts a new round of medications. after this the next big drama is seme's family. cuz seme's mom is already kinda mental from way back due to various factors in an unhappy marriage and then the dad died and she just was upset everywhere idk. i guess it's hard to pinpoint the exact causes of mental illness. so seme brings uke to family spring break gathering and family doesn't know uke's identity so it's okay. but some time later the mom randomly shows up at their apartment. seme is out but uke sits with the mom in silence and waiting. uke knows some shit about to go down and mom saw the hickeys on uke's neck. seme comes back and uke's mom goes crazy seeing them act domestic and stabs for uke but hits seme. seme goes into hospital unconscious for like a week. during this time uke decides to just up and leave?!?!? like ofc we've seen a lot of good mental development from him during this time, but such a weird real life choice. to leave your partner after he is stabbed. but i think the author wanted to show the uke be independent and not always just relying on seme so ok makes sense in the story... so this apparently all happened during their first year of uni, though uke was a bit older and held back cuz of his sister's death and stuff for 1 year or so. seme's mother was forgiven by seme eventually cuz apparently we're supposed to forgive all mental illness shit... and now jump forward 3 years to uni graduation of seme. uke had dropped out. seme has decided to move out and stop relying on his parents for money and stuff. and with that he shows he is free to love uke and be with him cuz he is fully independent now. they had originally promised to keep the relationship a secret until after graduation anyway. in a way this was kinda fulfilling the original plan of fully being together only after graduation. so seme graduating and uke comes to see him with flowers to congratulate him. seme hugs him right away and they go back to uke's house. uke actually bought the apartment they stayed at together before. so happily ever after from now on i suppose. there was a side doctor couple that's also not well explained. probably a lot got cut if this was adapted, and it would be worth checking for an original though idk if i can stomach it. at least not right now. ok so there are some very cute extras in chinese that were not translated. read them and it was worth! very cute normal couply stuff. so sad for all the shit this couple has gone through, i hope they can be together in peace forever.
Love me in the Wilderness
both come from powerful families. when young, they saw each other at uke's house cuz seme's father had come with seme to beg uke's father for money. uke fell in love i guess or was super moved by the seme. he asked his father to lend seme's father money. and despite uke's father hesitating at first he agreed and lent the money. after that they never saw each other again. uke's father's business slowly fell apart and he became poor. uke's sister married the business partner of seme's father. after she and business partner somehow died, company was left to uke. seme super mad cuz he is actually running this company right now. he keeps going after uke to make uke sign the company over to him, like the company shares. along the way he sees how uke kind of doesn't care if he dies and seme starts to care for uke. seme doesn't want to hurt uke during the process of getting the company back anymore but keeps him captive until he signs. uke runs away and meets with another guy cuz uke's goal has been to ruin the company and the other guy wants the same or something. anyway after that seme remembers his history with uke and goes to get uke from the other guy. they were on a ship but seme had a tracker on uke's phone. the other guy was almost raping uke as seme came in to save him. after that they go to some island and they get really close. seme says he no longer has bad intentions towards uke at all now that he remembers their past and how uke had asked his father to help seme's father. anyway but after that some people from the company are still after uke so uke runs away. the guy who uke tried to collab with before now stabs uke but seme comes to save him in time and uke confesses his love. seme has some time to think about their relationship while uke is in surgery and later in the icu. when uke can take visitors seme goes to visit him and they kind of promise to always be together. then some extras showing them moving in together. overall not bad but i feel like a lot of stuff was not well explained or maybe cuz i skimmed parts.... i wish they didn't tell the story in the order that they did, with their past placed in the middle of the story. the beginning is too sudden of a jump into their rivalry and it feels like i have no idea what's going on. once you get past that it's kind of nice, but was hard to start.
Hollow Lovers
uke is super popular straight guy kinda living off of women. his latest gf dumps him and he goes to drink at a bar. there he is picked up by seme and they go to seme's house. seme wants to fuck him but uke protests and seme is a respectful guy so seme backs off. next day uke doesn't remember anything of the night before with seme and seme tells uke he can live here as long as he wants. seme is gay and always sleeps with men but only once per guy. uke has always dated girls and always rejects seme's advances by saying he's straight. this becomes kinda important later. this story is really relationship driven opposed to most other manhua which i would consider plot driven. the plot stuff is resolved super easily but the focus is mainly on their relationship development and growth. uke starts working as seme's assistant cuz seme always goes through them so fast. seme is a fashion designer but from a rich family. he keeps rejecting his dad to go back home but this is not too important and easily resolved, as is every other external problem to this couple. anyway over the course of half a year or so seme sees uke is a super good assistant. uke also starts developing feelings for seme. like his feelings of admiration turn into something more. uke is also pretending to be seme's bf in front of one designer cuz that guy likes seme. and uke realizes that he's jealous for real now when seme is close with the designer guy instead of just acting like a jealous bf. one night they kiss and have sex. seme is super serious about getting uke's consent the whole way through. they do it and the next day neither really acknowledge it. this is cuz seme thinks uke is regretting it cuz he was always straight. uke thinks seme only sleeps with guys once so that was it. well they resolve this shit and seriously get together pretty easily lol. they are good at communicating and don't drag shit out by not saying shit. there's some outside drama like uke getting kidnapped and seme saving him. then some powerful guy blackmails uke saying have sex with me or i will ruin seme's career. but uke blackmails him back by using his son's drug use. then seme's career is super successful. but media reports on some shady connection between uke and that family and seme's business falls again. seme also has to sell his mom's property left to him in order to pay employee severance and stuff but whatever, that house was like introduced at the last minute just to give seme some money outside of his dad cuz he's not talking to his dad. all the plot is really too easily resolved... so in the end seme's business is not successful at all.....................very not on trend with other manhua semes lol. the story kind of ends there but in the epilogue they go to uke's mom to tell about their relationship. much drama with the mom not accepting them at first and two chapters out of order like around chap 86. but in the end mom accepts and they grow super close and seme is reassured that uke won't leave him for a girl and they say they love each other. honestly would have given it a 4 star cuz i'm not into this whole coming out shit. but i guess the beginning was pretty good relationship progression. this author just kinda sucks at plots.
Thirty Years Old
dropped after chap 43. so the couple got together pretty quickly after meeting. still unclear why the seme was so insistent with pursuing the uke. but the uke also seemed to accept him quickly. uke had just come out of a relationship with another man who dumped him to get married and satisfy his mom. anyway so things seem to be going well but it's starting some family drama about the family hating uke for being gay. they're both sons of rich families. seme's family already disowned him for being gay or something cuz seme doesn't talk with them anymore. and i skipped to see some chapters later and his mom doesn't want to see uke anymore cuz she's mad he's gay or some shit idk. not into coming out drama ugh i came for romance... second couple is uke's older bro and his secretary. secretary has always like the older bro. older bro only recently becoming conscious of secretary.
He Knows What I Do After Dark
surprisingly really liked this one despite uke being a prostitute lol but he's an innocent dumb prostitute........ seme and uke work at same company but seme is like an elite and from rich family while uke is kinda bad at job and a pushover. seme started to like uke while training him and always went out to find men looking like him to fuck. one day he really books uke cuz uke works as prostitute full time after work. apparently he likes the manager there who's been fucking using him for like 7 years since college. selling his body in all nasty ways cuz he knows uke won't quit. seme books uke for a whole month after the first time. and they slowly get closer to each other while talking and seeing each other and having sex ofc lol. one day seme takes uke out on date outside of work and uke starts getting real feelings or finally realizing real feelings. seme wants uke to quit the club job but uke doesn't want to cuz he likes how the job connects him to seme. runs off and next day coworkers all talking about how seme was spotted with a woman last night. uke gets kinda jealous but hopes to talk it out with seme at his other job. however seme never shows up and uke goes to seme's house instead cuz his friends at the bar convince him to just confess. at seme's house seme tells uke he didn't go cuz his sister is negotiating to make his disgusting manager release him from the job. uke is like oh no need for that let's go back to talk together lol.......so back to the club and uke quits by himself. so proud of him. and he says he only wants to belong to seme now and cute stuff and afterwards uke and seme have sex first time outside of job setting. uke's first time having sex not for job actually cuz his first time as nasty manager training him. very cute and morning after they eat together and seme asks uke to move in but uke misunderstands his intentions lol and we see seme looking at rings in a magazine. SO CUTE! art style kinda changed to be cuter but better in later chapters. quite noticeable.
Kemonohito Senmon Deriheru: Ore no Ko wo... Harame
came for mpreg but no actual child or pregnancy seen.......just says they're waiting now. sex aint even hot. and ofc plot is lacking as hell. characters plain. world of beast men and humans living together. uke is human with huge debt and working as call boy but somehow in 5 years he's never fucked anyone................. seme was his high school friend but after seme offered him money to settle debt, uke got offended and quit school and they didn't see each other again 5 years later. seme calls up uke to his hotel to fuck. they kinda do it. seme books him forever and offers to pay back his debt and stuff but uke still refuses. some drama with another human hating beasts and trafficking them. another panther beast comes from a different country and uke acts as translator. dropped chap 15
Shishi Mo Kobamazu
very cute, love an obedient delinquent lol. delinquent uke's family was helped out of bankruptcy by seme's family when they were young cuz seme asked his dad to help out. well their dads were friends anyway. now in high school uke transfers to seme's school and asks to be his underling. uke meets seme every morning before school. seme is annoyed by it at first and asks uke for sex to make uke give up. but uke says ok and they start doing it but uke faints from stress and is so tight seme's dick wasn't going in anyway. after that seme kind of warms up to him. uke cooks for him and eventually moves in cuz he's basically only going back to his house to sleep. seme always feels like uke is a little too submissive and just agrees with whatever seme suggests. there's some weird trouble when seme wants uke to sleep with him every night but uke gets too nervous and can't sleep and then goes back to his own room. also seme's father comes back and asks him to go back to england to be with the family. but seme is adamant about staying in japan so father leaves alone. at the end seme tries to make sure uke will have a good friend at school when seme graduates (seme 1 year older) and tries to make uke voice his own feelings more. it's honestly quite sweet. a lovely read and really enjoyed the characters.
Shichakushitsu No Midara Na Shinshi
just read first story of chap 1-3. not into the age gap older glasses uke of later story. uke goes to shoe store on boss's recommendation but everything super expensive. seme works there and is head of japan branch and used to be a model. weird the country's head is being a salesperson in store....... anyway, seme tells him it's ok to try the shoes 1 week cuz their store offers this service. but then uke's boss sees his shoes and is like wut that's some super rare shoe and uke immediately goes back to return the shoes. seme is like ok you caught me but let me dress you up in some suits now and uke agrees. seme happens to see uke changing and fucking falls to his knees to lick up uke's leg........lol. seme reveals he has extreme leg and feet fetish and uke is the most beautiful he's ever seen. then they start eating out once a week together getting closer. uke actually wants seme to touch him again and kinda seduces him with a pantsless look after a rainstorm. then they fuck and basically get into relationship. next chap, uke moves in with seme.
Royal Fiancé
uke's aunt is in hospital and needs money for treatment, so uke gets housekeeper job. one day buying groceries during work, he helps an old man find his way. old man offers him an even better housekeeper job and gives him advance payment. at school uke hears of the exotic country's prince's engagement. prince is his schoolmate and uke congratulates him. then they find out the next day that uke is the fiance set by prince's grandfather. seme thought uke was some money hungry slut and was kinda rude. uke was like wut i thought i was supposed to be housekeeper but went with the flow of things. his aunt calls him pretending to be massively sick and he goes to see her. seme follows and realizes uke only wanted money to save his aunt. he brings aunt flowers and promises to take care of uke. then they go back to prince's country for the wedding. they have first night and it's kinda like prince rapes him.......... after that uke finds out prince was the one leaving flowers for aunt and kinda opened up to him more? and idk but then there's some assassination attempt on uke and prince chases after uke who ran away. they end up under a legendary tree and pledge their love for each other. cute i guess, but nothing deep or special here.
My Four Masters