pluviophiliac's manga / #awkwardness overload(594)

looks kinda wholesome.

bro, this is gonna be EPIC. one chapter in and i’m already wheezing, lololol. edit: i CANNOT cope with this awkwardness. my god, i have take mental health breaks every other ten seconds at this point. c’: #sendhelp edit #2: THIS THING IS SERIOUSLY FUCKING HYSTERICAL LMFAOOOO AHAHAHAHA I DON’T KNKW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF edit #3: just casually getting goosebumps every other second because of these two RIDICULOUSLY GOOD LOOKING MEN who’re both TOTALLY OBSESSED WITH HYUN!!1!1!!1!1! this lucky bitch… tch. anyway, wanna trade? i’ll take them off your hands if you want. <33

so freakin’ sweet. i really like these characters! and the plot, too. (obviously, lol.) it’s new to me and i find it surprisingly entertaining; even though most of the translations are… borderline unreadable, not gonna lie. still here, though!! that should tell you something, i suppose. haha

bro, the smut is RIDICULOUSLY hot!!! overall, jooin’s remained ‘consistently cute’. well, mostly. annoying and somewhat clingy (?), but cute nonetheless. weirdly enough, i quite liked yahwi from the start, though—despite him being an inconsiderate jerk, aloof and overall toxic af for the longest time. (i’m weak to emotionally unavailable men, i suppose.) on the other hand, i didn't like cain at all in the beginning. i found him low-key creepy-clingy rather than sweetly clingy, and waaaay too excessive when it comes to displaying his sudden affection… well, way back in the day, that is. as it so happens, i’ve changed my mind since then! i actually quite like the guy these days. he’s understanding and kind and super considerate towards jooin—which i suppose are among some of the more important aspects of any relationship. i just don’t like unnecessary drama, ugh… but what can one really expect for a story like this? lol. but, you know… i started reading this manhwa two years ago, and honestly, i definitely wasn’t one for love triangles back then. however, i’d like to think that i’ve grown a little since 2021, and i finally picked this up after 1,5 years of indulging in… other things. i’m definitely relieved that i held off for so long, though! i suspect i probably wouldn’t have continued reading this back then if i’d chosen to keep going; especially knowing how dead-set i was on yahwi and jooin being together. …but anyway. as i’m nearing chapter 70 and yahwi’s FINALLY started to (somewhat) figure himself out emotionally, jooin is the one who pisses me off the most at this point in time. what a hypocrite, my god… yahwi can’t communicate, he says? i get that, but HE’S refusing to see things from yahwi’s perspective, too! he’s not even attempting to!!! yahwi probably suffers from alexithymia (emotional blindness) without realizing it. as someone who has it herself, his tells are pretty obvious. therefore, i’d like to think that his poor ways of expressing himself emotionally—as well as understanding his own feelings and thought-processes—wouldn't exactly be his fault. with that being said: how can jooin expect yahwi to read his mind flawlessly when he can’t seem to understand him, either…? jooin’s already aware of the fact that he's not on the same page as yahwi, man… at least yahwi’s been sincerely trying his best for a good while now. meanwhile, jooin has these IMPOSSIBLE expectations for someone who obviously doesn’t realize what the real problem is… and he won’t understand it unless he’s directly informed about what said issues are!!! he can’t read anyone’s mind. something that frustrates me a lot is this: how come jooin can be so straightforward with cain—who, by the way, doesn’t even seem to need it considering he can clearly read jooin well enough by now either way—but you can’t be straightforward with yahwi; the one who actually NEEDS all the clarity and bluntness the can get? it’s so goddamn ironic i could cry. and even as jooin’s breaking up with yahwi, the latter STILL doesn’t know what the actual problems are. not only that, but jooin’s also insulting him to his face and purposely hurting him in the process. fuck me, yahwi’s completely fucking clueless, man!!! i get that you’re truly hurt, jooin, but you’re not exactly doing your best to salvage the situation you’re in. you’re not even trying—you’re simply judging him; making clueless assumptions about his feelings and emotional state, which you’re obviously unqualified to make. honestly, you deserved that fucking slap, homeboy… (i’m anti-violence, but he had that one coming.) you actively try to provoke him, expect him to get angry with you, and then you get upset because he did exactly what you wAnTeD him to do??? give me a fucking break and stop playing the victim here. you’re not the only one suffering. it takes two to fucking tango. yahwi did wrong by hitting you, undoubtedly, but you’re not any better yourself. don’t get me wrong, though—i’m not saying that yahwi’s always been the one in the right (he hasn’t), or that turning to violence is ever a proactive solution (it’s not.) however, it’s obvious that our two main characters both have major issues and very little self-insight. the way i see it, yahwi’s done a lot of hurtful things, but he wasn’t really ‘intending’ to, was he? well, most of the time, at least. what he needs is proper guidance and straightforwardness in order to ever build himself a solid foundation. he needs time and patience if he’s ever going to learn how to form proper relationships. (yahwi thinks he’s already good at that, by the way. WHICH. HE. ISN’T. that’s the problem.) honestly, at this point, i hope yahwi finds someone else who’s at least (somewhat) understanding about his emotional blindness, blissful ignorance and commitment issues. it’s not his fault that he can’t read minds and do things exactly the exact way you expect him to. and i know i’ve stated this a hundred times already, but the poor guy seriously doesn’t even realize the predicament he’s in, man… i genuinely feel for him, and i get it. 100%. either way, from my perspective (and based on the fact that i’m now fully caught up), jooin’s the more selfish, entitled, immature one out of those two at this point in time. it’s almost as if he’s slowly and intentionally) beginning to turn into a vindictive asshole towards go yahwi. (then we’ll have two, yay!) however much i happen to understand jooin’s frustrations, i relate much more to yahwi’s. i despise it whenever people blame everything on one party and avoids all responsibility—which, in this case, would make kitty sunbae the sole villain with no possible redemption arc. it’s what ticks me off the most, really. simply put, they just shouldn’t be together. i suppose they both deserve better, honestly. …aaaand that was a long ass rant, by the way, but who fucking cares at this point? lol. yahwi deserves his own happiness, too—which i truly hope he’ll find sometime, and i’m pretty sure jooin would be able to stay happy with cain… if they do choose to get together in the end, that is. at this point, i truly have no clue what to expect. it could go either way… jooin and cain seem to have a lot less communication issues as of right now. but hey, like i’ve said a billion times already: i sincerity hope that kitty sunbae finds someone who’ll come to love and appreciate him for who he is; someone who’ll embrace him, all of him, despite his flaws—including his ‘social difficulties’, so to speak. those are all things he can work on and improve with time! (speaking from experience on this one.) yahwi should be in therapy already, ugh. but hey, all in all, it’s been a pretty damn great story thus far! i guess that’s why i’m getting so easily worked up, lol. it’s relatable as hell. i wish these guys the best… i just want them all to be happy, the whole lot. that’d be good enough for me. i suppose we’ll see! edit: man, things are fluctuating like craaazy right now. (ↁ_ↁ) yahwi’s finally realized some things about himself and he’s making honest attempts to explain his point of view to a clueless jooin. jooin’s struggling with these new developments; not knowing how to deal with yahwi’s sudden change in behavior and cain’s inability to be completely upfront with him. cain left temporarily to take care of a ‘family matter’, only to end up being stuck with said family who’s now properly convinced he’s crazy for saying he wants to go back to SK and be with his ‘owner’ from a past life. (understandably so.) man, i have no idea how this’ll end… send help. edit #2: we went from sexy mess to full-on emotional distress throughout this journey... i’m absolute IN LOVE with this plot development, omfg. it feels like we’re nearing the ending now, but i genuinely hope we’ll get some more yahwi + jooin lovey-dovet content before the story’s wholly wrapped up. these past couple of chapters have been resonating with me like CRAAAAZY. i can’t wait for next week to arrive! edit #3: every recent chapter has been a literal knockout. i have a feeling we’re on the last pages now, but wow… the artists are really doing this story justice. these past ten-ish chapters have been so meaningful and beautifully narrated that it almost feels like a different story altogether. don’t get me wrong, it’s always been an amazing reading experience, but never to THIS degree. it’s being wrapped up so nicely, and it’s been quite a long time since i genuinely felt a sense of closure when nearing the end of a fictional journey… and we’re not even at the end yet!!! man, i’m so happy right now. i applaud all of those involved in creating this masterpiece of a manhwa. whenever and however the final chapter is eventually released, i can tell for sure that there’ll be no plot holes or unanswered questions left. perfect closure. i’m so, so unbelievably impressed by the author’s ability to incorporate emotions into visual writing—thus allowing us readers to experience such an array of joys and sorrows in a way that isn’t that commonly experienced within this genre of manhwa. outstanding work, truly!

this is simply magical. gorgeous, gorgeous writing! i’m practically getting choked up every single chapter, i kid you not. such a beautiful travesty… i’m hoping she’ll pull through, but i don’t think she will. either way, it’ll be worth it. (what an excellent read, ugh…) i straight up feel like crying right now. karina deserves to have the whole damn world at her feet. meanwhile, milian’s trying his absolute best to give it to her, and he doesn’t even realize it himself yet. i can’t wait for them to come to terms with the fact that the BOTH of them have feelings for the other. it’ll definitely be devastating once it inevitably occurs (since this is a tragedy and all… and unfortunately, we all know what that means), but i could honestly ask for nothing more. <33 however things go, and wherever she might end up… i know i’ll be sobbing like a baby. for what it’s worth, i genuinely hope that they’ll get to experience a lot more of those happy, genuine and serene moments together. i know they will; i’m just sad and impatient and i’m already DREADING the aftermath of all this. i love and cherish them both. they’re such good people. i’m so glad they found each other. P.S. my god, i didn’t know i still had the ability to empathize this way. guess i’m still a human being after all! and, well, i suppose it’s a bittersweet relief. (better than slowly turning into numbness itself, aye?)

MC is a queen!!! love her.