Stand by me, Darling!
heh, i quite liked the storyline. it’s a classic! my biggest complaint, though, is that the art itself felt kind of… flat. it’s just hollow, expressionless and underwhelming. i didn’t feel like their looks and body languages always matched the situations in question—which is the main reason as to why i’m only giving this three stars in the end. it felt more awkward and forced than genuinely wholesome, if that makes sense. i did somewhat enjoy the smutty scenes, though! but yeah, overall, i do wish that the art was a lot more expressive and original… and i also would’ve liked feeling that connection to the characters. make the atmosphere feel more personal and intimate, you know? sheesh. but oh well!!! but, to be fair, it’s definitely not the worst story i’ve read—BY FAR. i’m sure i won’t be rereading it, though! :)
The Duchess' Lewd Invitation
this is soooo different!! never before have i come across a smutty josei during a historical era. it’s quite revolutionary, really. i’m thoroughly enjoying myself! edit: my god, this stresses me out. the sex is RIDICULOUSLY hot, no joke!! i’m just anxious for the big ‘reveal’, to be honest. i don’t know what to expect. i’m hoping for a happy ending, but you never know!!! one can always dream.
Kill the Lights
woooow. this is way better than i expected! honestly, i don’t really know what i was expecting, but i know this wasn’t it, lol. either way, i’m stoked! i’m enjoying every single aspect of this thus far. i can’t wait for noah to find out the truth; it’s going to be epic. also, all this non-sexual sexual tension is KILLING me!!! my god, just fuck already. edit: *currently dying in HORNY!!!* i read the novel, so i already know what’s up… ughhh, it makes the manhwa-experience ten times better. the tension and anticipation is killingggg meeeee… edit #2: it’s over and i don’t know what to do with myself AHHHH. they’ve grown so much. <33 can’t believe is as this, but i love them together, lol. that epilogue was beautiful. (i’m getting emotional now, fuck.) a day will come when i’ll write a more extensive review (i’m guessing i’ll be rereading this again at some point as well), and i’m quite looking forward to that. i’ll give this store justice. no matter how initially toxic and unhealthy their relationship was, they’ve both changed and grown since the beginning, and i’m surprisingly optimistic about their future. also, i hold so much appreciation for the fact that they actually went public with their relationship so quickly…!!! and with, like, zero hesitation at that, haha. it’s so rare to see that in comics featuring modern-day korea—ESPECIALLY with celebrities. i love it, and i’m so happy for them.
Rivalry
my god, i can’t believe there is an author out there with the sheer AUDACITY (!!!) to create characters this fucking good looking. it should be illegal, i can’t. the awkwardness is on a whole other level, though… that’s the main reason as to why i’m here, writing this right now. every sentence i write here is basically a necessary mental health break for me, lololol. i’m only on chapter 3 and on on my 4th one as we speak. send help. 3 still, i’m loving everything so far!!! it’s so, so good. i’m really looking forward to reading more of this! honestly. edit: bro, i’m anxious AS FUCK!!! i’m on chapter 11 as we speak (i’m reading on another website because i’m impatient af), and this shit is seriously stressing me out, lol. i have noooo idea what to expect at this point. i’m anticipating a whole bunch of awkward, emotional disasters… but it’s aaaaall gooood. or, at least i hope so. um, maybe…? someday??? c’: edit #2: ughhhh, season 1 is finally finisheeeed. i really called it with the alexithymia, though!!! i mean, although he never explicitly SAID that’s what it his ‘condition’ is… as someone with autism herself—which often includes alexithymia, as it does in my case—it’s so painfully obvious, lol. and i completely understand him and his confusion! figured it out quite early on, actually. that’s why i always sympathized with lee dojae while everyone else was bashing him, i suppose. but it’s always nice knowing i wasn’t just making baseless assumptions and creating ‘problems’ that weren’t actually there, haha. in any case, i’m so happy to see them moving forward together. <33 and i’m super stoked for season 2!!! it’s going to be amazing, i’m sure. i hope they’ll end up going public with their relationship! i’d love to see that. normally i wouldn’t really care about such trivialities, but in this case, i’d genuinely feel excited for them. (especially knowing the rumors and shit already going around. show ‘em you’re an item!!!) i just think that they both deserve the world, honestly. since i’ve been reading this comic on other websites as well, i’ve stumbled upon a lot of commentary about how much of a shitty person dojae is and how euntak deserves better, yadi yadi yada... which i DO understand, don’t get me wrong! it’s just frustrating knowing that so many people never even bothered asking themselves WHY he was behaving this way. it’s sucks. even more so since i find the whole ordeal ridiculously relatable, too. sheesh. got off track for a minute there… whoops. but anyway, once again, i’m super stoked for the future! hopefully we won’t have to wait too long for fresh updates, heh. i’ll wait patiently, though! i have an inkling it’ll be worth it. <33 edit #3: i’m fully caught up with the raws by now (through other sites), and i simply HAVE TO exclaim just how much i sympathize with dojae—like, ALWAYS—and how my dislike for euntak keeps growing by the chapter these days. ugh, seriously… i can’t even understand what the raws are saying, but i already know all this drama is mainly caused by euntak’s insecurities and immaturity, as well as all these constant misunderstandings. i mean, he KNOWS about dojae’s struggles!!! he should realize he’s not doing any of this intentionally, or at least understand that he needs to communicate with him on a more literal level… ugh, this all just facilitates my suspicion that he really doesn’t get what alexithymia is. having it myself (just like dojae, as i mentioned once before), i truly understand his struggles… and i also see what that he just DOESN’T GET why people behave the way they do sometimes, nor does he understand that euntak pretty much expects him to ‘read between the lines’ and behave in certain ways or whatever, ughhh. it’s so fucking frustrating!!! i’d be having the exact same issues if i was in a relationship like this. no proper communication, from what i’m gathering…and i feel so bad for dojae. he’s JUST starting to understand parts of himself and his feelings, and euntak’s being a drama queen for no goddamn reason, if you ask me… I. HATE. ALL. THIS. SECRECY. TOO. i’ve never understood that ‘sneaking around’ bullshit, either. well, i mean… to some degree, sure, but this is just next level shallow in my opinion. and selfish, too! dojae is trying soooo haaaard to be accommodating and he’s ALWAYS the one having to adapt. i’m just, like, ????? wtf? why? give the man a fucking BREAK, euntak!!! he’s trying his best to live up to your desires and expectations at all times, seriously!!!!! can’t you see that?? ugh, all this relationship drama… couldn’t be me, i’m tellin’ ya. i’d rather stay single for the rest of my life than deal with such things. anyway. i think it’s quite funny how this story began with a majority of the readers disliking dojae while basically EVERYONE was empathizing with euntak… i’d be genuinely upset if people follow through with that mindset after these past few chapters. although, it wouldn’t surprise me, per say… (knowing that i, myself, have been intensely misunderstood my whole entire life for similar reasons…) but still, dojae is CLEARLY experiencing the same bullshit judgments and unspoken expectations from people as i always have; without anyone accepting (or even realizing) the present struggles at hand… or MEANING behind those struggles. fuck, i just want him to find his own happiness. i think he’d be better off without euntak at this point, honestly... dojae’s truly trying his best to be respectful and a good boyfriend (without instinctively knowing or understanding ANYTHING about these matters, by the way!!!), and yet he keeps getting shot down for every. little. thing. he does. literally everything. his feelings don’t matter, clearly… poor baby. :( i love him the most. he’s definitely the most misunderstood character in this whole goddamn manhwa, that’s for sure. not by me, though!!! i get it, i really do. stay true to yourself, lee dojae! you’re doing nothing wrong. <33 your boyfriend needs to learn how to be accommodating, too. and he needs to grow the fuck up before he brings our whole goddamn ship down.
Kiss me, Liar
AHHHH, STOP CALLING OUT HIS NAME, YOU IDIOT!!! PLEAAAAASE, I BEG YOUUUU!!! i can’t cope with all this secondhand embarrassment i already know is heading my way. YOUR BOSS DOESN’T EVEN KNOW HE SLEPT WITH YOU (um, maybe…?), AND YET YOU’RE MASTURBATING IN THE FUCKING BATHROOM STALLS AT YOUR GODDAMN WORKPLACE?! WHERE. HE’S. THE. BOSS?!?!?! AHHHHH!!!!! i can’t handle this. talk about maaaad stress, bro… i’m literally here writing this during my fourth mental health break in, like, ten minutes… and i’m not even past that ONE scene yet. i repeat: I’M. STILL. NOT. PAST. THE. GODDAMN. MASTURBATING. SCENE. good lord, send help… edit: what the fuck did i just read, lmfao. don’t get me wrong—i thoroughly enjoyed myself! despite all the… ‘mistreatment’, if you will. i only came here for the sex, after all. and, just between you and me: the smut was TOP. NOTCH. QUALITY. man, seriously… i need a shower… or three. whatever. these guys were (slash are) toxic af, but i don’t even care at this point. yaoi has truly desensitized me by now. i suppose it’s only logical… considering the fact that even sexual assault has the capability of turning me on these days. and yes, before you ask: i do disgust myself. i clearly have issues. shit happens.
ENNEAD