Mimi's manga / #BL(768)

I went into this fully knowing this was tagged with “lack of communication” and “misunderstanding”, yet I still wanted to give it a chance because I've read some ok books with those tags. I feel like what pissed me off the most was the level of dodging Kaname was so adamant in doing that he literally felt he wasn’t in the wrong????? My guy, what do you mean "what happened?" this is all literally your fucking fault! This could've been a completely different story about how Kaname felt their relationship was only built on sex, communicates that to Shima so he wouldn’t feel like his boyfriend is sick of being with him, and then that the rest of the story is just them finding their footing in what they both want in this relationship realizing that what they both want is sex. And that’s ok! Kaname could've said something in chapter three leaving room for the rest of the chapters for them to be on that “sex break” and learn about each other more since that seems to be what Kaname was worried about. Earning the reader that sex scene AFTER the Christmas tree kiss. Instead, we got a scene where Shima was frustrated enough to force himself on Kaname until he cries that it hurt because rape was more important to the author, I guess. I feel like the author really wanted me to see that Christmas tree scene, gasp, and go "awww" and think it's cute. I’m supposed to just forget and forgive the frustration because the Christmas tree kiss was adorable?! But you know what, I am sad. Sad for Shima that he had to deal with that shit and sad for me that I have to buy this because it's getting officially translated.

An age gap? That's five years apart?? At the time of their ages right now??? I honestly don't know how I feel about that since a 20yd Yoshito would've held feelings for a 15yd Tomoe and I'm a little ?!???!!?? about it. Which kind of sucks for me because I liked how quiet this story is. Between Yoshito's and Tomoe's backstory along with Tomoe's fear of abandonment, this has a "grey rain clouds around 4 pm on a Thursday but it doesn't rain" feeling and I love that. Just really wish the age gap wasn't so prominent. I also really wish chapter seven didn't start the way it did and instead had this very heavy, still air as they talked. But no. I did appreciate the flashback bits. Still ruined the tension from chapter six immediately for me, though.