RenRen's manga / #heart-wrenching(145)

Two friends struggle to handle their relationship when one of them confess their love but the other has always been straight

Uke and Seme are paired together in porn production. Uke has a terrible past, being pimped out by his older bro and sexually abused, treated like a human toilet until he killed his bro and ran away with his lover. His lover went to jail

Otaku Seme has been crushing on his cool best friend since high school though he never dream to confess because the uke is very popular with girls and he was just satisfied being friends. The uke later realizes he truly loves him too

Super popular guy has a crush on another guy since middle school. The Seme has always been dumped by his past girlfriends because they prefer the kind, gentle prince Adachi, which creates a false sense of competition between them. Adachi is, however, incredibly in love with the Seme and has looked up to him for six years

Yuki Mitsuhara's a dork with glasses who's cold, hides his true feelings, has few friends, and always acts like a square. The person he has a crush on is the playboy who lives across the hall from him in their college dorm, Kouki Shima. Kouki's a heavy smoker who has a new girlfriend every few months and is always being scolded by Yuki. But, the truth is, Yuki's crazy about Kouki. Then, one day, Kouki finds out that Yuki's gay, but not in the way that Yuki wants him to...! This is a pure love story between an aggressive playboy and a masochist dork with glasses

5 years separation over a stupid misunderstanding and miscommunication. Seme kissed Uke in high school which awaken his inner gayness, but then denies it because he didn’t want uke to hate him. Uke took his rejection as a sign that he’s not attractive, so he decided to grow up and have sex friends instead of a committed lover. Seme grew up to be an actor but he vows to stay single forever because he never got over his first love. They’re both stupid for far too long

There is a oneshot about the end of the world zombie apocalypse here where two friends to lovers basically die together. Sad but at least they'll be together forever. Other stories are cute, one featuring a much older middle age seme falling in love for the first time after seeing a man half his age at a strip show.

This is the fluffiest story ever about a boy being pimped by his own mom finding love and solace in a classmate who held his hand and ran away together once. Lowkey mad that the mom didn’t get the karma she deserved. Seme actually had to keep selling his body to escape from his own fate, except he started to choose his own clients instead of letting his mom. Uke was a coward and he recognized his own weakness, but I can’t bring myself to hate him because they were just children. I wished the uke would’ve spoken to the police to get the Seme out of there sooner…but can’t bring myself to give this anything less than 5 stars

Sequel: Yoden confronts the skeletons in his closet and learnt to find happiness with Makoto while forgiving himself even though his brother's death and his parents' were not his fault. 1) Sei no Gekiyaku (main story) (Makoto let go of his past & starts loving Yoden ) 2) Sei no Gekiyaku Re:life (sequel) (Yoden finally let go of his past & confessed to Makoto ) ------------------------- OLDER UKE BDSM Makoto(33), used to live a sincere & honest life working as an elite office worker who fell from a perfect life, after his parents suddenly passed away after an accident & then lost his job of 11 years & to make matter worst even his fiance dumped him. Drowning in his misery all drunk he attempted to jump from a flyover & commit suicide.... but he was helped by a mysterious man, Yoden(29), who now claims his life as his & plan to reform him & make him feel alive through sex ..soon enough both lay bare their deepest secrets & insecurities & let go of the past baggage & decided to move forward together .

Let’s just say I’ll never read this again. It was sad enough that I read backwards from the last chapter to lessen the pain (as I read the comments beforehand) and I still decided to quit. I’m glad I never read from the beginning otherwise I’ll never get over it. There was no happiness, no hope, not even a glimmer of redemption in this entire story. Those who suffered the most died. The main cause of all suffering lives, I guess to suffer alone, but it feels terribly unsatisfactory, like a killer getting away with murder to atone for his sins by himself. Justice was never served. Nothing could have made this bittersweet. This story was black and blue from the beginning and it ended that way too. Crying as I’m typing this. Never. Ever. Read. This