andy2mc's manga / #Angsty(28)

THE SECOND HAND EMBARASSMENT. Jeez. But it's also quite sad

8? 8.5?

8.5 the sizzling chemistry between them IS OUT OF THIS WORLD!!!!! Sooooo hawwwwwwt. The angst, the yearning, the affection…. Ugh feels. The art is also absolutely gorgeous!!! The coloring is so chefs kiss!

9.5 I don’t fully know how to feel about this one. It didn’t hook me in from the start, since the straight up rape was too much for me. But after picking it up again, I got seriously attached to the mc and the kid FUCK I LOST ALL I WROTE (come back and develop on this) (Wait to finish to reread whole thing)

10 Truly grotesque (in the best way possible). It's certainly not everyone's cup of tea--- but it is mine lmao. It's extremely gory and graphic... but it had no right being such a skilfully written story. It grabs your undivided attention from the start with its addictive weirdness. But it somehow gets better and better in ways you wouldn't expect. And unravels in such a poignant tragic manner. It comes full circle in such an emotionally striking way. It's truly so beautifully written. A rollercoaster of emotions that makes you reflect deeply about human nature and desires. It’s utterly heartbreaking and twisted, and so beautifully written. I love it and I hate it so much. It got me sobbing non-stop to the point of dehydration. The ending is heart wrenching, but it's the perfect ending for the story. It's the type of tragedy that you seem coming but can't escape its grasp nonetheless. The type of doom that breaks you completely in it being completely unavoidable... which makes it somehow so so much worse. It's such a poetic story, and masterfully delivered. The way J ends up killing himself so he could be finally free... PAINNNNN. He basically used Makoto to get him to say his name so he could be set free from his century-long loneliness (that comes from being the strongest unreachable individual). Just like Wald used Jonathan in the same manner… and how Makoto is now going to do with his future “disciple”. The self-fulling cycle of blinding obsession, and utter soul-crushing loneliness. That’s “Wald’s curse”. You rise to the top due to the obsession love-hate you nurture towards the initialed who took you in. Until you become stronger than them and can say their name. That becomes your only goal and motivation. Your only reason to exist, what allows to survive. Similarly, the initialed holds on to you like their one and only lifeline. Once they get you to say their names, they are finally free and able to kill themselves (demons can only die if they are completely forgotten or when saying the full name of a more powerful demon). Which leaves you empty since you no longer have your source of obsession and utterly lonely, with no way to put an end to your misery. Which leads you to look for a disciple that can outpower you eventually so you can finally be free……. And so the cycle continues. I'm not even sure if there ever was love between any of them... the way this antagonistic whirl of emotions is depicted is so poignant. Perfection really. A true masterpiece. It rips you apart. At the end of the day, they are all just agonizing in their loneliness and seeking for an escape to this ending all-consuming pit. (Just writing this is making me tear up in the middle of Starbucks lmao) The artstyle is also god tier. It manages to capture this contradicting emotions so rawly. One certainly needs to be open minded to enjoy this manga, but once you perceive it beyond its weirdness and gore, you can truly admire the masterpiece this is. Capturing this oh-so-utterly-human all-consuming seamingly-unescapable bottom-less loneliness

10 The plot is absolutely FIREEEEE. I felt all range of emotions. I sobbed, laughed like a maniac, I giggled, I gasped, I fangirled, I got super enthralled in the action scene and unfolding plot… it was truly a remarkable experience. Such a masterpiece I came across. I completely understand why it’s regarded so highly (and this comes from someone who has read a lot of game/system manhwas). The scene when he understood HE was the one that killed his father and his mother was protecting him this whole time HAD ME SOBBING REALLY UGLY. Greatest piece of fiction I have ever read I relate so hard to Kim Dokja, as a chronic “Dokja” myself. It hits pretty hard. I relate to him on a spiritual level damn. He's my animal spirit Also, for me Kim dokja x Yoo Jonghyuk are canon idc (though kdj is shippable with pretty much all characters)! Update: What had me SOBBING REALLY UGLY, LIKE INCREDIBLY UGLY was the demon king of salvation scene. It got me extremely dehydrated. Holy shit

8 I’m confusion. The most kind fuck fuckingdy fuker I have ever read. It keeps you on your toes *the whole time*!!! Incredibly unpredictable. It’s truly a rollercoaster experience. AND ANGST DAMN…THE FEELS AAAA