iamhungry's manga / #Dark(108)

Plot: mc works at ice ski and meets rich ml who tells him he loves him. Hes weirded out but has an accident where he falls and ml starts taking care of him. Since he cannot work anymore ml offers hotel, mc stays there reluctanly, ml also discovers he self harms. One night he spirals and starts self harming again, ml finds him, makes dr visit him and cures him, mc is called by ganster (and before he was found by one of his guys, but ml defended him, on their first meeting), he goes there and has forced sex, he does it to pay debt parents left him. Mc rememberrs how hes been doing this forr long and one time he didnt want to but that ganster raped him worse after mc caused a scar by accident. Later mc was ab to leave hotel but mc was there so he stayed, they start kissing but notices mc has fever so he calls dr next day, he starts being treated and dr recs therapy, mc is willing to but avoids certaim questions. Mc gets drunk from party and smoking at stairs, mc holds him, keeps calling him, making him eat and stuff, now hes living in ml's house iirrc, he also gave him his card so mc is using it now. For two days he disappears bc he had to ggo to see gangster, then goes back to house and is abt to kill himself by throwing off balcony during rain but ml stops him. Mc asks him to have sex with him, rough, ml does but does it gently. They keep having sex those days. Mc also recalls his childhood, parents wanted him to be the best at playing cello, he hates it, he was punishd and beaten for it as a child. Meanwhile ml is having ppl investigate eveyrhing ab mc, and they find he himself supossedly borrowed money from gangster. Decides not to pay his debt yet since mc doesnt want to owe anything to ml. They went to a beach house and stayed there, have sex, until ml has to cb. He recalls his decission to exposee mcs family bad practices made mc end up in this situation, but hes scard to tell the truth. He goes back to hotel and finds gangster with ml's card in his hands, mc lost it before but didnt know wheree it was. Gangster was lookibg into what mc was up to. Ml believes mc has a lover cuz of the hickeys he has at times, mc dosnt correct him, ml doesnt know hes forced to sell his body. Gangster tell him the truth abt ML, that he was the one that exposed his family and lead to where he is now and tool advantage of him, ML arrives and mc avoids him, goes away, both look for him but no camera saw him leave building. Mc is near sea crying and is found by a kid and his grandma who take him in. He lives there for a few weeks, then ML finds him one time that mc is selfharming and attempting suicide by drowning, ml holds him back, but mc tells him he wants to be free, so ML tells him he will and leaves him alone. Gangster finds him and tells him to follow him, mc does. Both live tgt for weeks, have sex and everything, mc eats less and has nightmards, keeps crying, gangster forces him to say he likes it and he feels good, gangster asks a therapist abt it and hes told maybe mc got used to the medicine for depression and needed to bring him in, gangster goes back and sees mc throwing up, gets angry cuz mc is getting thinner snd throws him, mc hits his head in shower, gangster yells at him and makes him cry. Leaves and comes back, realizes mc is in bed and when he checks on him, mc is bleeding in his head, brings him to hospital, mc wakes up and his memories of bad things are gone, thinks gangster is ML and smiles a lot. While he was unconscious gangster realizes his state is his fault. ML is outside of the hospital room when mc wakes up. Backstory from ML was that his mom selfharmed when he was a child and he didnt tell his dad until his mom attempted suicide again, he goes away but after that thwy were able to be a family again (after his father sort of blamed him for what happened), until his parents died in accident when he was now an adult. Gangster backstory: dad beat him and almost kills him bc they ran out of drugs (in present time, gangster does drugs), he defended himself and kills him. MC's backstory with both: each one interacts with him the first time when MC was at his parents funeral, ppl came to ask money, ml talked to him in the snow and told him it wasnt his fault (bc he kept saying it was and apologized to everyone that asked for money). Then gangster comes and tells him he must pay his parents debt. Gangster keeps pestering in his job, then one time hes abt to be harmed by another money lender and asks gangster to protect him and he'll do anything he wants. Mc confuses ML with gangster, and believes theyre each other, gangster takes advantage of this and they have sex. One day ML comes to see MC and realizds he lost part of his memory, doesnt rmr him but confuses him with gangster because he keeps getting few memories back, runs away. ML comes to see him other day snd they talk more, mc realize he isnt afraid of him. Mc asks gangster about his promise to live near seaside, gangster doesnt understand bc it was ML who made that promise. Ml asks mc to go somewhere at night, mc sneaks off but is foubd by gansgster, he makes him get out of car after a while in the forest and he attacks him saying he knew mc was planning to leave with ml and that he pretended to lose memory, mc now remembers and gangster chokes him, until he releases him and mc cries, he tells mc he cant let him go but if he ever beats mc again he shiuld use a gun and puts him into pisition to shoot him. Mc refuses and yells at him that he doesnt carw sbout what he wants and gangster agrees. ml arrives and comforts him, gangster tries to stab ml, mc tries to put himself in middle but he is thrown to side, mc grabs gun and points it at gangster, other ppl arrive and shoot mc on his chest, gangster workers grab him when he tries to grab mc and tell him they need to go bc police if after him and need to escape. Then time skip and gangster is drugging himself again bc he received papers saying mc died, while the truth is rhat ml made that up and kept mc being attended by drs. Seasons passes and then mc wakes up. Mc is sad bc now he remembers it all and asks why ml never told him the truth. Ml sets him free and mc goes away. Mc starts luving for himself after debt was paid and he got his own apt, ml said he wouldnt follow him or try to contact him. Mc goes to therapy and does better, he learns how to get himself out of panick attacks. He realizes he misses ml. He goes to see him when he sees news he would bw stepping down from ceo position and that rumours and bad press was happening. Ml is drunk but finds him outside of his house, mc is cold after waiting a lot of time. Mc confesses what he feels. They get into a healthier relationship, ml works while mc goes to his classes now, plays cello for ml one time after a long while and he makes mistakes but it isnt tormented now, his meds got a lesser dosage now and is being comforted by ml with his nightmares. Ml fulfills his promise of buying a house near the seaside, they live tgt. END Side story > off the record au, both ml and mc are a secret pairing, gangster actor implied to love mc too but respects that theyre a couple and it finished when they end recording FMW. Bonus story: gangster is told mc is alive, goes to see him one time, he sees him happy with ml and smiling, he walks away, didnt want to keeo the cycle of abuse from his father. gangster realizes he "killed" mc.