『Fangtasia』's manga / #psychological(186)

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CW: groping, sexual assault, dubcon, pedophile (mc was assaulted when he was a kid) someone made him drink a glass of semen Crybaby Taichi goes to a school full of delinquents, and all the bad kids in school think he's their leader! What Taichi doesn't know is the fact that he has an alter-ego who's a ruthless delinquent! And, little does Taichi know, he sometimes regresses to a child-like state. He doesn't even know what touching himself is, despite his body being in the throes of puberty. Mitsuru Gunji, leader of a rival school's gang, takes interest in Taichi and starts initiating him into the ways of pleasure.

CW: gore, bestiality ➼MENTAL DISORDER ➼PSYCHIATRIST ➼PHYSIOLOGICAL

➼ DOM X SUB ➼ DOM-SUB VERSE This type of verse is set up so there's actually serious consequences for people with dynamics that aren't fulfilling their needs. So there is no option to only play at a level Rui can handle or just not do it as far as I understand. Especially since it's been stated the medicine isn't working to suppress it anymore. So I'm actually not disappointed since sorry not sorry but physical, mental and emotional health come first even if you like someone. Especially if you are likely to lose control eventually and seriously hurt that person such as this situation. That said they should probably just break up or Rui can just accept he's not able to fulfill all his partners needs. Even if it's sad, facts are facts. I've read other sub/Dom verse stuff where it's mentioned that some people have romantic partners and a separate play partner for some reason or another. This is actually the first time I'm seeing it in a main couple though! Usually it just magically works out somehow so this is a lot more interesting. That all said I stand by a previous comment I made that Rui really doesn't have any idea what he's actually into. But chances are he's probably not into hardcore playing and he's so sensitive they honestly should just break up since even the 'present yourself' command scared him. Actually I find him a little unreasonable since his partner seems to be the only one making concessions since holding himself back to what Rui can handle must have been incredibly frustrating. And I don't think discussion would have helped because Rui strikes me as the type to have flipped out instead of talking seriously and tried to put himself in a dangerous situation to stop him. This discussion needed to happen after Ritsu leveled himself with play rather than while he was in a bad way imo. To be honest I see both sides. I actually want to see them break up and then they can each get a spinoff to find a suitable person.

If you haven't read the whole thing, then don't read my review (chapter by chapter comments) because there will be spoilers. Chapter 1: Did he really keep an unknown guy near his beloved daughter? That part seemed strange for me and it's one of the reasons I gave this rating and not a perfect 10. Chapter 2: At first I thought Akitora died and the daughter we see in chapter 1 is his, and Uichi was taking care of her because he couldn’t have Akitora. He said she was his everything and that was what he said for Akitora but we'll see about that. Chapter 3: That struck me deep. What a fucking masterpiece. Author, I love you. Not to mention... falling for a married man? That hurts. Uisui didn't know at first but he chose to accept it somewhat at first and even more down the line. Chapter 5.5: Engaging in sex while the other person is unconscious is a big no-no, but in this case Uisui would have loved every moment of it, even if he heard about it from Akitora later on. Not to mention Akitora couldn't bear the temptation, so that would have made his even more happy. And that's the reason Akitora's face was bit red when he laid on his wife lap after that bath. Chapter 7: The vibe of this dynamic is relatable. I know he is hurt so bad, but that wife is so cool and put together that nothing and no one could ever take her place. Chapter 9: Asami is the MVP for real. She's quite the strong woman, not only is she caring for a damaged soul like Uichi, but also standing her ground. Chapter 10: "The urge to possess him is what drove me to kill Handa." I knew it. He punched Handa because he was angry to hear him say something amongst the lines of -you can't have him, he belongs to me!- ''Sometimes I feel like we're lovers. Sometimes it's friends. And sometimes it's more like we're parent and child.'' What Akitora said should have pissed his wife off, because ultimately that's what the person you love and wanna live and build a life with is. They are your lover, your friend and even your parent in the ways they care for you. Disappointed we didn't actually see that, or if that was it and she lied by saying, ''Murders don't need to come home'' hope its explained down the road. Chapter 11: When Akitora went to finally meet his father, at first glance I thought he had been forced to make tiny ponytails like little girls do but it was just the doorknobs. Please tell me I'm not the only one laughing at this panel. Chapter 12: This is perfect to a T. A job well done author-sama. Remember how I was wondering about the wife's reaction? Her feelings are clearly explained here when she thinks, ''That's as serious as you can get.'' She's trying not to lose her husband and she knows there's no other way than to accept the situation as is. Being a former prostitute and being a yakuza's wife, she knew what she was getting into. Being an empathic and genuinely worrying over Uisui also isn't helping her at all. Akitora and his wife... I just love them so so much! An out of ordinary couple that has lived together, came to understand and respect each other within the confines of a Yakuza world, one as strict and unbending as the military, refusing to accept let alone embrace change. This mangaka is brilliant! Chapter 13: Oh, Asoda. Somehow being a bastard doesn't suit you at all, sugar. I didn't wanna believe it, but I think in his mind he's doing everything for his boss, and he wouldn't have done that if the second's head executive hadn't put these thoughts into his head. He is clearly manipulating him and Asoda is falling for it. By the looks of it, Akitora already is on to it since he was looking from the window but I wonder what that betrayal will cost to Uisui. Chapter 14: Matsumi's genius brain and his untouchable aura....it's kind of creepy but also kinda hot at the same time. As for Asoda, all of this is an entire betrayal and the fact that he thinks he’s doing it for the boss is a complete and utter fail. Chapter 14.5: This chapter had a terrifying beauty to it. Chapter 15: I was so satisfied seeing Uisui telling it as it really is to Asoda. He should know his place. Russian Roulette... (OMG) wasn't expecting that or the continuation but I should have known by now how on edge Uisui lives. I kind of knew Asoda had a thing for Uichi from their history together and maybe that was why Uichi apologized at the temple (sex in the temple). Uichi probably used a cassette player to tape Asoda's admission to meddling with his boss's money, which he entrusted to Uichi for investment purposes. He basically threatened the stock broker into losing his boss's money. Chapter 16: Well, unexpected but its not the first time we see Akitora going all ballistic against anyone who touches or tries to claim Uisui. Chapter 17: I like that the situation between Akitora and Uisui is explained through the point of view of a third person who's just involved in the mess but Matsumi being Akitora's brother is another unexpected factor that was just thrown on us out of the blue, but with good reasons, and since there's a rivalry going on between the brothers, all the more reason Akitora shouldn't have left Uisui go with Masumi. And why the heck did Asoda lie again? Chapter 22: No matter what he said, Uisui really considered them his family, even Akitora's wife, Asoda who hurt him, and the baby. He left for Akitora's sake and was once again alone. He had found a family, even if it was dysfunctional but he was happy with it. Now there's nothing. That hit so hard I kept crying. Chapter 26: I'm sad his wife passed away and I think that's the reason Akitora managed to stay away from Uisui for that long, seeing as he made it back to him after she passed away. Not that he didn't love her, cause he did in a different way than Uisui, but without her he would have tried to keep Uisui tied down. Uisui on the other hand took that kid and raised it as his because of his loneliness. He wanted to form his own family but could never love romantically anyone else. It was so nice to see them together after all these years. All in all, this was magnificent. Definitely a good read. 9.5/10 overall rating. I loved how this was not just about romantic jealousy and we could see where everyone’s jealousy led them. Jealousy was a very fitting title indeed. The author sure knows human nature and their talent is breaking my heart with its beauty.

OBSESSIVE SEME MANIPULATION PSYCHOLOGICAL

This is a comment I had saved up a while back but I didn't keep up with it chapter by chapter, so I'll just summarize it from where I left on till the end since I finally decided to finish reading this. Yay, congrats me! And congrats to the author for completing it. It's slow paced, tragical, history based and the mystery element is low. The psychological explanation would be interesting if it shows up in the following chapters about how one got into sodomy (Seungho, a young nobleman) and how the other got into painting these acts (Na-kyum). There are many cruel scenes including rape, gang rape, abuse, psychological manipulation, gaslighting, imprisonment and so much more. The history aspects in this from the drawings to the story itself were spectacular. Definitely a 10/10 rating on that aspect. I have mixed feelings about chapter 41. I mean Na-kyum's teacher is an asshat. and that sentence at the end of the previous chapter pulled at my heart strings. Its obvious the young painter picked the wrong way to cope with the sadness fueling his heart by asking for sex in hopes of forgetting everything weighting down on him. Seungho is still the same person like always; cold, absolute and ready to hit him at the first slip up. Though that is the case, he seems intrigued by Na-kyum's behavior and demands through his fierce attitude an explanation. The learned one isn't as innocent and straightforward as we thought he was. He seems like a snake that wants to use his student to climb up the ladder even if it means his student has to sleep with Seungho. Upon realizing Seungho's interest towards Na-kyum; he uses him. Chapter 46; wanting to leave but having nowhere else to go. That realizing must have downed on Na-kyum for good now. He really has nowhere else to go and the attitude he will keep receiving won't be good but at least he has a place to sleep and eat, even under these circumstances. Chapter 47; ''Little Whore'' he was called by the stuff in the residence. There are always a few jealous working people here and there, no biggie, nothing. But, that doesn't mean these words don't sting. Chapter 48; One of the reasons Seungho is so attracted to Na-kyum -after painting of course- is that Na-kyum hasn't been honest or clear in his honest, thus making Seungho want to learn more about this strange behavior. Chapter 49; Seems like Na-kyum has surrendered to what he seems to be his fate, being used for sex in order to have a roof over his head and food. Chapter 52; the way the chapter ended seems to me like Seungho will regret saying that and sharing the lowborn with all others in sexual activities. Its like he is trying to prove something to others and to himself and I believe he will fail doing so. Na-kyum as well; he seemed to have forgotten who his master really was till reality kicked in and he show him kiss one of the others. Chapter 53; there is one basic element here that has been said to us but only showed once and that was how possessive Seungho is about the paintings. This chapter has been like a revelation from a third party and explained and showed all at once. Such a serious scene for our both leads and it was quick paced. That took a bit away of the progress we could have seen. Moving on in the next chapters we see the realization of what they feel and how they try to deny parts of it and still while that hasn't cleared up yet, an illness is brought up and the lousy attempt of Jinhwa to get the master to look his way. At this point, things will start getting more interesting and we will see how far Seungho's obsessiveness will take him and the point of madness he will reach. Na-kyum is always afraid, from start till now, he has never been brave. He had only closed his feelings off cause of the Learned one and started feeling again with Seungho who is making him sad again. He should have been his safe haven after what he went through, and instead of that he is his downfall. The painter's noona; why did she look for him after so long? And who knows what she's been through being a kisaeng for so long that she said these words to him? I'm sure the painter is thinking of her words but nothing will change what he's already feeling. Seungho asking Na-kyum to not push him away, was a nice touch. His feelings are coming through more clear now. After what felt like an era of abuse etc, we finally see some development romantically wise but it just felt like a torture-porn through and through. And that's Stockholm Syndrome, not love, my sweet Na-kyum. Power dynamics wise, we can say that power doesn’t always corrupt but it reveals what's hidden. This aspect was also clearly shown. Waiting for the side stories...