kei_k's manga / #Age Gap(250)

Ch. 19 // Waaah. Really liking it so far.. I felt as worried as Ji Eun over the Yeonhwa issue, but after Gyuho declared that he's just thankful to her for letting him live and was able to meet Ji Eun after so many years, my worries suddenly disappeared.. It's because I realized that I may be harboring the same feelings for my ex.. I mean, there was a point in my life when I was definitely, totally in love with him and he was all that mattered.. But now that we're no longer together, I can't deny that he's already become a part of my life and I'm simply thankful for everything he's done for me. With this in thought, I wouldn't want my future partner to get jealous over him like that. That's why I'm trying to make myself understand it from the other's perspective (in case there's someone like this for him too).. Oh well, it hurt thinking about the past lover, but if we waste too much time deliberating over it, we'll lose precious time meant to be spent together in the present and future.

ch 4.5

Aww. I first read this on... I don't remember when. Probably 2014? And now, I re-read it in August 8, 2016. The story still got me. It's truly memorable and close to my heart. I still wanted more than how it ended, but I guess that's left to our imagination. I loved this story because I was feeling for the characters. I felt bad for Haram when her love for Hanbit was not reciprocated (or at least, he didn't realize it then) but I was glad when she finally accepted her feelings for Gaon. Gaon. This guy made me tear up a lot. I was so sad for him but admired him at the same time. He's bright and he tried his best to make up for what he's lost. He created happy memories after being with Haram, and even when he knew it was pointless, he still continued to love Haram. When his memories came rushing back to him and he teared up? I was so hurt for him. He's a coward, but he's also brave. Anyway, I was glad that when he finally made his decision, he ended up being happy. Hanbit. Oh, this hot guy. He's the guy you'd admire from afar. The mysterious, cold but gentleman type. I loved and hated him at the same time. Really. Especially his strange quirk? Ugh. Okay. Nobody's perfect, so even a guy like him's supposed to have a weakness. But really? His weakness was so annoying. He couldn't stand it when girls cry in front of him, so he makes it up to them. That's why when girls confessed to him, when he rejected them and they started to cry, he just went along with them. Then, of course. A weakness like that was meant to be spoiled by a desperate girl. And that's how Sujin took advantage of him. I hated his high school self for giving in to her tears despite feeling strange about it. He knew she was his friend's girlfriend but he believed that they really broke up. Really? Even if that were the case, he shouldn't have accepted her that instant. And of course, Bakha was also to blame. He didn't listen to him until the end so he obliviously asked him to take care of her instead. So Hanbit may have felt more guilty for that so he forced himself to respond to Sujin's advances more. Hah... But I also hated how even when he finally became a college student, he has not changed. He even had that horrible experience in high school, and what? He still let his weakness get to him, subconsciously leading Yeojin (the singer) on when he saw her cry... And of course, when Haram confessed and cried (despite being warned by Yeojin) because she somehow wanted to take advantage of it, he actually said he'd do anything she wanted if she just stopped crying. I think anyone sane would feel unsatisfied. There are times when we want someone desperately that we'd think we'd do whatever it takes, as long as they become ours... even when they don't love us in return... But when it actually happens, we feel unsatisfied and become greedier. Anyway, this Hanbit was so frustrating as how he could calmly deal with Sujin like that. He already knew she wasn't normal, so why'd he expect that she'd back off after being told off so nicely? He didn't learn from his past mistake at all, being drugged and dragged to her home again. This is why I think guys who are nice to everyone, or too gentleman tend to become bothersome. Because they can't say "no" firmly or reject someone who clings desperately, they "sacrifice" themselves. They say they don't want to hurt that "someone" who asks desperately so it's better if they hurt themselves instead to satisfy the other. But what does that really do? It only hurts more people. I just wish guys like him would reject others firmly when they're really not interested. They may look bad or rude, but it's because of situations like this that I tend to think it's good enough if the guy treats me well, even if he treats other people indifferently or they think he's bad. Of course, that's selfish of me, but we can't please everybody anyway. No matter how good we try to become, there will always be someone who thinks otherwise. So instead of wasting time trying to reach out to a lot of people, I think it's wiser to just spend time creating more memories with people who actually appreciate you. Okay, I got carried away, but I think Hanbit's story was just so memorable that I can't help but want more of him. Like, how would his life go on? How will he meet "The One" and deal with his weakness? The main story was of course, around Gaon. And I really liked his story, too. He even made me tear up. I liked his personality, especially because even if he's nice to everyone, he knew how to draw the line. Like, when Yeojin asked him to stay with her instead, since it wouldn't really matter who he's with as long as he gets a companion, but he firmly refused and said he wanted to stay with Haram. This is what I want. Like, even when at that time, he still wasn't aware of his feelings for her, he remained faithful to her. This is really what I'm looking for in a guy. Of course, he's not perfect as well. He's a bit childish and it may seem like he only treated Haram well because she's the person who picked her up, but he's very thoughtful as well. Of course, it hurt when he suddenly ran off with his necklace, but I think everyone needs to deal with some things by themselves. That doesn't mean that they don't need us though. It's just part of discovering more about themselves. Anyway, this situation with Yeojin really made me like him more because you see, I actually felt a pang in my heart when he started to go out of his way to see and hear her sing in the park. Even when it was actually because he wanted to make Haram listen to her, I felt jealous that he's paying attention to another woman. He even agreed when she demanded to stay with her for a day. So I was so glad and relieved when he answered that way. Okay, about Haram. Well, she's violent towards Gaon, but it was intended for comedic purposes since Gaon was childish, so I didn't mind so much. And even when she's emotionally hurting him with that thing with Hanbit, I can't exactly blame her because it was easier for her to accept that she has feelings for Hanbit. And it's probably because she's aware that Gaon's a ghost so she didn't think of the possibility of falling for him since the beginning. Well, she's selfish too, but like Jiwon (Purple hyung) said, selfishness is part of human nature, so it can't be helped. I'm glad that she somehow controlled her selfishness though, and it's relatable how she demanded him not to even crush on someone while she hasn't moved on. I think every girl would wish that of their unrequited love, but she actually voice it out. Anyway, I just really love this webtoon. I wanted to learn more about Gaon's life before he became a ghost and after he and Haram finally got together. I wanted to see more of Hanbit and how he becomes more sensitive to other people's feelings. I wanted to see more of Eden who's had a brother complex for Gaon meet his match as well. I wanted to know more about Garam and Hansol's blooming relationship, Bakha and Yeojin's on-and-off relationship, and I wanted some shounen ai for Mokyong (?) and Ran. XD I also wanted to see more of Purple hyung... I even wanted to see how Sujin was after the whole mess. Most importantly, I wanted to know more about how the supernatural phenomenon happened. Like, was it always like that? Or was it only the two of them who experienced their memories being sealed in one of their belongings? Anyway, I wanted to know more of this phenomenon and I wished to see more "ghosts" meet the ones who can see them and read about their stories too. Ahh, too much wishful thinking, eh? I wish I could at least make a fanfiction or something. This is very inspiring.

It was cute for the most part, but I wanted to know more about the seme's tribe and the seme himself. It would've been good to see how he acted when he wasn't with the uke, too. Just, you know, it feels like the characters weren't fleshed out at all. And everything was just too convenient. I wish there was more.

Oh-kayyy... I liked it but disliked it at the same time.. 1st couple: Kagami and Rei. Kagami was 8 years older than Rei and was Rei's brother's friend. So they got together when Rei was in HS, had sex a few times, then Kagami just suddenly broke up with him. 10 years later, they meet again, and it turned out they haven't gotten over each other yet. They were about to re-ignite their intimacy again, when Kagami received a phone call and backed out. So, it was actually Rei's brother who called. Kagami broke up with Rei 10 years ago because he felt guilty about their relationship on his friend's (Rei's bro) back. So when he called at that exact moment, Kagami felt like it was a slap to reality and made him think about how he avoided Rei for the very same reasons. Anyway, even after Kagami tried to avoid him, Rei still hoped for their love to happen again. So. after being picked for their company's product testing, they were able to compromise and be with each other since they were unable to resist anyway... Hmm, so what do I think about this? Well, it had the same premise as Sekaiichi, regarding the 10-year re-encountering love, but unlike in Sekaiichi where Takano had a hard time winning Ritsu back, the struggle for this couple was next to none. Rei was just... always waiting for Kagami to come to his terms and he'd gladly take him back. It wasn't even hard enough for Kagami to come back since Rei too blindly in love with him despite being abandoned twice. I would've liked it more if Kagami worked harder to prove his love for Rei and if Rei resisted a bit to make Kagami pay for abandoning him at least. 2nd couple: Luciano and Yoshi. Yoshi was the company president and Luciano was his exclusive model and 2-year lover. The conflict started when Yoshi started paying too much attention to a new model he hired for the same line Luciano was representing. Since Luciano felt insecure with the new guy's age and how much attention Yoshi was giving him instead of taking notice of Luciano, he felt that Yoshi must've been getting tired of him, especially because he hadn't been speaking words of love or cuddling/snuggling after sex. Then enters Saotome-san, the graphic designer for the ad, who favored Luciano and openly talked how much he adored and appreciated his charms when he invited him to eat out (Yoshi had been too busy lately for him). Of course, even being shown this kind of attention, he didn't exactly want to give in to Saotome-san, until they see Yoshi and the new model guy together outside (as if they've just gone elsewhere, when Yoshi should've been somewhere else). Luciano then spent more time with Saotome-san, and during his rehearsals for ramp modeling, he met Saotome-san backstage and went ahead to kiss him... Then goes Yoshi who was furious with the scene but decided they should talk about it elsewhere. Saotome-san knew that they were mutually in love so he convinced Luciano to talk with Yoshi properly. Luciano then confessed how insecure Yoshi made him feel about not saying words of love and being sweet anymore, and only paying attention to the new model. Yoshi explained that he only adored the new model for the job, but not privately, and he promised to always tell him he loves Luciano so he won't feel insecure again. From then on, Yoshi was true to his words, to the point where Luciano got annoyed with how much he's been saying it. Hmm.. my thoughts.. Well, even if some look over it, I still consider what Luciano did as cheating. Sure, it was only a kiss and it's not like he no longer loved Yoshi, but the point was, he should've at least confronted Yoshi first before jumping into conclusions like that. I mean, if I were in his position, I would be fuming jealous about those scenes, but I wouldn't take on another guy just because I felt neglected. If I can't confront my lover, I'd rather wait for the right time to talk than mess around with someone else, especially one who confessed his sincere feelings for me, when I don't feel the same. That'd just be too cruel, and it doesn't matter if my lover was really cheating or I just assumed wrongly, but being with others to get back at him is just too much for me. I wouldn't want to do what he did to me to get even. That's just because I'm not a cheater though. So yeah, I wish Yoshi punished Luciano a bit for that little affair rather than just making Luciano feel that he was mad, then got over it quickly. 3rd couple: Saotome and his uke (I forgot the name). The uke was assigned as Saotome's assistant, and he was more than happy since he liked Saotome for a long time. While at work, the uke noticed how lifeless Saotome was and caught that he was fretting over his broken heart for Luciano so he didn't have the motivation to work hard. The uke then offered to comfort him, if it'd help, saying since he wanted the job to be done, he'd do anything. Saotome had sex with him but felt guilty so he requested to re-assign the uke. The uke was actually clueless until someone from work asked why he resigned being Saotome's assistant. The uke then confronted Saotome and Saotome told him that he felt guilty for making him do something like that for the job. The uke then revealed that it was a lie and the truth was that he's in love with him, but since he didn't feel the same, he felt happy just to be embraced even once. Saotome accepted his reasoning and asked to help him move on, and the uke gladly responded. Of course, at that point it was good enough for me. But then, Saotome just had to ruin it when he suddenly said "I love you" towards the end. I mean, wth! He just agreed for the rebound relationship so I felt like it was too fake for him to say he loved the uke just for the sake of it. Like, really, did the mangaka think it'd be more romantic for the seme to say those words just to commence being a couple? Nah-ah. I would've wanted him to just let the uke say it since those feelings were real. He should've spent more time getting to know the uke first before declaring his love. It's just to fake when a few minutes ago he was still in love with someone else then after deciding that it'd be helpful to have the uke help him move on, he suddenly loved the uke. Meh. 4th couple: Hoshino and Tokunaga. I disliked their story the most because it was rapey and I didn't feel any love. So Hoshino was jogging and thinking about how Rei, his co-worker, managed to find time to have a lover when they're too busy for that. While resting, the dog Jack came up to him along with the owner, Tokunaga who was actually a sculptor. Anyway, being too excited, Jack jumped onto Hosino, causing him to fall back and injure his right arm. Tokunaga then felt so apologetic and offered to help him during the one month Hoshino needed to keep the cast on. Tokunaga cooked for him and he was glad, until he offered to wash Hoshino and helped him strip. Tokunaga mentioned how he admired Hoshino's body, and while being touchy-feely, he got to Hoshino's D and touched him. Of course, Hoshino resisted but Tokunaga insisted that since he's on cast, he must've a lot pent up so he's doing him a favor by helping him masturbate. Despite disliking it, Hoshino actually came fast with Tokunaga's hand so he felt embarassed and yelled at him to leave. The following days after that, Tokunaga didn't show up and he felt a bit lonely and dissatisfied. While walking, he passed by Tokunaga's studio and Jack spotted him so he stayed for a while, only to be discovered by Tokunaga. He was invited to have coffee inside and he went along since he was curious about Tokunaga's works too. Tokunaga showed his portfolio and he realized that the sculptures where all male bodies and Tokunaga was actually inspired after seeing the naked structure of *whowasitagain?Michaelangelo?*. He then requested for Hoshino to pose nude since he claimed that Hoshino's body was his ideal. Hoshino finally agreed and he stripped naked. While sketching, Tokunaga's eyes seemed burning with desire while staring at Hoshino's body so he felt too conscious to the point where his body was feeling hot and his little guy was reacting to the heat. Tokunaga took this opportunity to touch him and even though Hoshino blatantly refused, Tokunaga forced himself on him, saying that his body won't react if he didn't actually like it. So yeah, it was rapey. After that, Hoshino was mad at him and didn't meet him again, until Tokunaga sent him an invitation to his exhibit. Since the invitation's salutation was "to my love," he felt that perhaps Tokunaga was sincere with him and maybe he could love him too. So he went there, only to discover Tokunaga being surrounded and being touchy feely with two men, side by side. He then realized that Tokunaga must've done the same to all his models and he was just like the rest. He walked out only to be stopped by Tokunaga. Tokunaga pulled him into a room to explain that those guys were indeed his models before and he slept with them, but the only one special to him now was Hoshino. After hearing this, Hoshino just felt relieved and accepted him right away. See?! That's why I was so mad. I didn't feel Tokunaga's sincerity at all. I mean, c'mon! He went out of his way to invite Hoshino, making it seem like he wanted to show his sincere feelings after raping him before, so the least he could do was keep his hands to himself instead of being all over other guys whom he used to sleep with. Urk. I just couldn't stand him. I mean, if guys like him could be that casual with people he hooked up with, I wouldn't have a peace of mind at all. His words just negate his actions. He didn't even show any remorse towards his awful actions and he still led Hoshino around. Tsk. Anyway, the last part was cute though, seeing how all the couples gathered for Saotome's completed project.

It was just fine...

What can I say? Taka's thoughtful and especially SEXY.