kei_k's manga / #Live-in(304)

This is my favorite DJ of Totally Captivated. I love how it sparks a debate about Ewon's decision. Personally, I approve of his decision. It may be cruel to the sister in hindsight, but Mookyul knew how Ewon was not capable of giving himself completely to anyone else. If anything, I'd say he willingly became the bad person for Ewon. A lot of people comment how Mookyul was being selfish, wanting Ewon only for himself, but I guess they've forgotten how Ewon was guilty of the same in the orig. manhwa. He realized that he wanted Mookyul for himself only, so he wanted him to abandon the Pres, even though it was too hard for Mookyul because he'd greatly indebted to him. If anything, he could say that he won't even be able to stand in front of Ewon now if the Pres didn't raise him. While it's true that him being picked up and raised had ulterior motives, to the point where he's obligated to have sexual relations to that person he considers a parent, it's also true that he could've been in worse situations if it weren't for Pres. Anyway, if we look at the bigger picture, we can say that Mookyul sacrificed a lot more than Ewon. When he cut ties with Pres, he also had to abandon the family (his subordinates) he's been with for 8 years. Those men were in real trouble when they're abandoned and left in the hands of the evil Kim Namhyung. Well, it's still quite fortunate that the worst thing that happened was Sungtae lost one of his eyes. It could've been worse. Meaning, Mookyul had to forsake them in order to be with Ewon again. What about Ewon? He was also forced to forsake his family. The difference is that, they're actually blood-related. But does that mean they're more important? A family is tied by love not just by blood. He was with his sister for barely a month, so why do people expect him to abandon Mookyul after all those things they've gone through? It's not like he abandoned his sister and mother completely. He's given up all his savings for them. That money wasn't just money; it was money he worked so hard to save by himself after being abandoned. We can say that Ewon is basically doing what his mother did to him --- choosing a lover over family. The difference is that Ewon's mother left him locked in the middle of the forest with nothing to keep himself alive. He was left there to die. If she were any better, she could've at least left him in an orphanage where other people can fend and take care of him. But no. She abandoned him completely. Now, Ewon did abandon his sister, even knowing that the mother had suicidal tendencies. But that's exactly why he also hired an adult maid to help her go through the hardships she's to face. Unlike Ewon, she's given more support. She has more than he ever did. Now, a lot of people complain about Ewon's decision of cutting ties with her, not even allowing her to contact or visit him. They say Ewon's too selfish to just live with Mookyul and not care about her anymore. Hey, people. You're forgetting who we're dealing with. It hasn't been that long since Ewon allowed himself to love and be loved. He just couldn't handle this complication and Mookyul knew this. If he allowed the sister to get in touch with him, his resolve to leave them will be shaken and he'd hurt all of them, including Mookyul. He felt that since he couldn't reassure him with his love, the only way to prove his choice is to stay with Mookyul. If his resolve is shaken, he'd want to be with his sister more and more, and he'd eventually have to deal with his mother again. Now, not dealing with his mother's issues may seem like he's running away from the problem, but facing it doesn't always mean it's right. He went through so much. He may eventually need to face his mother again in the future, but not now. What he needs now is to constantly be with Mookyul and feel whole, after all those years of being empty. You just can't force someone to suddenly be a family.

I just wish it were longer, so their back stories were elaborated and we had more sexy scenes. I really appreciated how Sakurai-san was gentle (he even used a condom with lube to prepare him. That's rare but good, because it makes the uke (esp Virgin ones) feel more at ease. I mean, it's kind of awkward when they're just fingered, right? Because the inital reaction is it's disgusting 'coz it's where they excrete.)

Liked the 1st couple in particular.. Wanted more.

Ch52

Regardless of gender, cheating is still cheating. I disliked the seme and uke for this, but I'm glad Yukari didn't cling to the uke . Most of the points of this manga is for Yukari.

Ch52 http://www.lezhin.com/en/comic/moritat_en

Well, the stories are such hodge podge and incoherent, but yeah... Wasn't much of a fan of the 2nd story because of the open relationship, though I liked that they were willing to be reversibles.. The main story is somewhat realistic and even though it was heartbreaking in the early stages, I felt proud of them.. Wow, and if Miya didn't leave Tado for Chichi's sake before, Non wouldn't have been born so Akkun wouldn't have him.. The third which was a oneshot is so random. There's barely background story and I dislike how they're "cheating" or well, I suppose it's no longer cheating because I think like the 2nd story, they're sort of in an open relationship. So yeah, would've given it a 4 but wasn't a fan of the open relationship presented so..

Non is my bae. Just wow, dude! He was really devoted since young. I really liked how he wanted so much to tuck Akkun in him to make him stop crying.. I also wanted how he was very proactive in pursuing him instead of just being pushed around. The 2nd story was complicated and heartbreaking. C'mon, realistically speaking, it sucks if a husband cheats on you like that. I get that their marriage wasn't going well but they chose to stay in it for their child and they didn't have enough motivation or reason to get out of it so they just put up with it.. So when Tsukamoto found that reason, he decided to get on with the divorce. It sucks because there's a child involved, but I think it's better to leave and make the child understand than to pretend and deceive so as not to look bad. I mean, as the child grows up, he/she'd see how f*cked up people are. So yeah, initially I'd be so mad at the uke, but after thinking about it more, I realized how he wasn't happy anymore and it was pretty much pointless to stay. It's like, instead of turning into a monster, he'd better be off somewhere else. Aaand anyway, regarding Sou-chan, hmm so he used to be an uke for Max.. I guess he's a seke but a total seme for Tsuka. I liked Tsuka's devotion though I shed tears for him and my heart really hurt during those times that Sou refused to acknowledge his feelings more seriously, afraid that he'd be abandoned again.. I mean hey, even Max who wanted to play him hurt so much for him. Gahhh. Really. Also, I like it when an ex who interferes the relationship turns out to aim for his ex's current partner instead of the guy he used to date. XD I mean, it helps in making them realize how they're taking their partner for granted.