kei_k's manga / #Mooore!(802)

I liked how the seme handled the situation with the uke, being an adult and all that.. It was sad, but thankfully, the uke was mature enough to stay and try to understand the seme more. Although he claims he's a bit annoyed by how the seme's attitude changed after they officially dated, it's not like he's totally against being pampered... He's just not used to it since he was raised to be mature and independent. Would've wanted to read more though...

Ahhh my heart broke for Hidetoshi a lot of times... I often questioned how people who claim they're in love with someone they're not in a relationship with (due to various reasons) are able to be intimate with others without completely getting over that someone.. I kind of understand how it is, with Hidetoshi's case. He's been in love with Kengo, and wanted to confess on his graduation day, but because Kengo unintentionally crushed his chance by saying that him being gay wouldn't change anything since they'll always be friends anyway, he had no other choice but to go along with it. Because he knew how Kengo wanted to treasure their friendship, he didn't push his feelings and instead redirected his attention to others, to keep the friendship from falling apart. He got into relationships with men who were Kengo's opposites, and the longest he's been was with an abusive guy... Well, as Hidetoshi said, it's not like his relationship with that guy was only filled with bad memories. He also fell for that guy in the beginning because he was really kind and almost an ideal lover. However, upon finding out that Hidetoshi hasn't completely gotten over Kengo yet, so he can't even devote himself fully to him, the guy started drinking and hurting him out of spite and jealousy.. Hidetoshi took it all because he felt guilty about having those feelings while dating him, so he believes it's his fault he turned out that way anyway. Besides, since they were getting old, they had limited partner choices and since they shared a lot in common, they licked each other's wounds. It's like, they've become dependent on each other. With this, I just felt like, perhaps, it really is possible to love more than one person at the same time -- they will never be equal though, because no love is ever alike. In his case, his love for Kengo was something he desperately wanted to bury deep within him, because he also felt that by doing so, he'd be able to at least protect Kengo. That Kengo! He was really nice, though I wish he'd come to terms with his feelings sooner. He was a coward for not doing anything despite feeling the need to. Well, it can't be helped since he never expected himself to feel that way towards another man... But I wish that the moment he felt unhappy being distanced with Hide when he got a girlfriend, he should've dealt with it immediately instead of just going with the flow. Yeah, that was his problem, he just went with the flow. I'm just glad that he finally took action and saved his uke big time.

1. Yuma x Suwa (unrequited love for Kajima sensei, who already has a fiancee.). Yuma liked being on the same train as Kajima despite being risked of having men grope her because it was a time when they "share the same aura." She went out with Suwa but she wasn't really satisfied because the one she really liked was Kajima. She went on pestering Kajima, but he was resolute. He already has a fiancee and didn't consider her. She ends up just asking regards to the fiancee since she realized that there are a lot of girls like her who could only crush on him (earlier she was wondering why not a lot of people notice him when he stands out for her a lot). She goes back to Suwa. 2. Kanna x Haruta (Kanna x Haruta are childhood friends who ended up being friends with "friends since middle school" Asami x Mayama. Kanna liked Haruta but she was insecure about how he truly felt for her because he continued flirting with others, and when a convo about the motorcycle went like this, H: I'm going to let the girl I love ride on it. K: But I'm scared of motorcycles... H: Who said it would be you? So yeah, that made her feel like maybe he didn't really feel that way for her. So when Mayama asked her out, she went with him and kissed him. But then Haruta died the same night when he was hit by a truck while riding his bike, texting Kanna that he's coming (bec earlier, Kanna said not to barge into her room suddenly, and should at least send a text).. So yeah, Asami liked Haruta and confessed during the fireworks (this is also the time when Mayama made a move on Kanna) but he rejected her because he liked Kanna. Basically, they were going around in circles. Asami liked Haruta and knew he liked Kanna, but she pretended not to know and wanted Kanna to feel that things with them 4 shouldn't change... Mayama liked Kanna and knew Haruta liked her, too, but he pretended not to know, so when he knew Asami liked Haruta, he kind of pushed them to be together so he can get Kanna. Kanna felt that Haruta liked her because it was natural for them to be together and he was giving her sweet little kisses, but she was conflicted because he doesn't confess to her and instead goes on flirting with other girls. It's a heavy case for all of them so it was hard to move on. After he died, they just went on their separate ways because they felt like they were at fault. Eventually, they got together as friends again. 3. Mizuki x Kajima. The story of how Kajima met his fiancee. Started in hs. Mizuki was a 3rd year, who had unrequited love for her sensei who was getting married, while Kajima was a 1st year. They ended up being together, but since graduation was near and she's going far away, Kajima didn't want to be in and LDR. Mizuki asked him to come see her only if he's really serious about her. Six years have passed, he never once came. Mizuki came back and Kajima became a student teacher in their alma mater. They were somehow reunited by her niece. Seeing a guy with Mizuki in the hospital when visiting her dad, he assumed she had a bf so when asked, he told her he has a gf (w/c was later denied by her niece who liked him). After seeing Mizuki's guy friend (whom he thought was her bf) with another girl, he realized he misunderstood her and comes to her while she was sharing her regrets of letting him go just like that before. Anyway, they voiced out their concerns about that and went to his house to "see his dog" just like when they first did it. 4. Ai x Mayama. This is the same Mayama from #2. He was in her neighbors unit, taking care of his friend's goldfish while he was away. Anyway, they had sex, but Mayama couldn't completely get serious because he hasn't completel gotten over their past. It was implied in the end that he was conflicted of being with Kanna since they shared the same past but at the same time, wanted to somehow forget and move on. It's like he's a bit ready to move on with Ai, but he can't, at least until Kanna becomes happy with someone else again.

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