kei_k's manga / #Unrequited Love(292)

Ch12

Reminded me of my favorite Junjou pair, Junjou Egoist (Nowaki x Hiro)... Wanted more.. I'm a bit biased towards kind/gentle/devoted seme, so this is pretty high in my book. :p

It's cute, but the dialogues and monologues are quite scattered or something.. I mean, I got what it wanted to convey, but it's like reading broken lines and the impatient me just wasn't too fond of that because I like words.. The main concept/plot is good, but it still lacks something, especially with those skips..

I'm very conflicted about how I feel about this manga because it feels too deep, yet some of the characters reasoning seem illogical to me. I really liked how Youji matured from his bratty self. In the early chapters, I disliked how he was hating on Hirose's complicated feelings, and he ended up being in the same predicament. Since he had this sense of responsibility to rescue Ren, he felt that he needed to do something for him and started acting strange after Hirose let him in on what he's getting himself into. So when he kissed Ren at night while they drank, then kissed Hiromi (his gf) the next day, I was pissed off. When he told Ren he liked him (despite still being confused with his feelings), I thought he'd break it off with his gf right away. I mean, at this point, Ren or the others would advise not to, since Youji's not even sure of his feelings yet. However, it's unfair for Hiromi to have him continue date her while he thought of another person. He was very insensitive about the ring, too. Well, anyway, it's good that he at least had the decency to break up not long after. I was glad that Ren didn't accept him immediately, too. As the manga goes further, we see that Youji learns more about homosexual relationships and he's slowly healing Ren while being mature and keeping his composure; reminding himself that liking Ren is enough, at least for now. Ren really acted like an adult. When he went over to Hirose's house and said that he still loved him, I was disappointed, but I kind of understood. He's never really gotten over him, so it's just that he started to acknowledge his feelings. It was brave of him to stop running away and refuse Hirose despite his lingering affections. What I didn't like was how he reasoned out that he's doing Youji a favor by not crossing the line, and instead goes around sleeping with others. Sure, he's still unsure about his feelings for Youji and he felt pressured that he can't reciprocate the same feelings he expected. However, I simply do not understand how sleeping around, and coming home to Youji, who could possibly smell him and know what he's doing, would help his situation. He's trying to run away from Youji to prevent him from being hurt, but what he's actually doing only hurt Youji more. Ugh. I dunno. Even in the last "rape" scene where he claimed he wasn't abused and he felt pleasure from the body, I just couldn't understand. I thought he'd given up his feelings for Hirose when he started touching Youji... But I guess his feelings just don't vanish that easily. And as he said, his body truly remembered the pleasure they shared all those times they were together. This made me worried though. It's as if he'd give in to Hirose anytime since it's only physical pleasure anyway. In short, it's as if Ren didn't give much importance to the physical aspect of the relationship. I wish he cherished it more. Especially when he finally accepted Youji... How can he simply enjoy it because he pitied Hirose? Why didn't he try to resist simply because he pitied Hirose? How could he even be sure that he'd be released even after doing all that? In a way, he did betray Youji that time. Ahhh, but he was actually honest to Youji about this, but since Youji's the one chasing him, he could only accept it.. In the end, I guess I wished that Ren expressed more of his love for Youji because he seemed too passive. I get that he was hurt and it took him long to get over it, but I thought that when he knew about Youji's trouble, he'd be more active and all. I think he's been too spoiled by Youji... Ugh. Really, I just can't get over the fact that he still willingly went with Hirose's desperation. Well, he said he no longer hold lingering affections now. I just hope that it's true, and that he'd never sleep around again or allow others to kiss him easily. He's too nonchalant about this. He should think about how his partner would feel more. After all, Youji's one of a kind for him, so he shouldn't let him go by being st*pid like that.

Hmm no romantic scenes, mostly smut.. but art is beautiful and sex scenes are hot (and they used lube!)

Prequel

ch 24

I really wanted more of Kitagami's story! He's like, frivolous but cute. I liked Okumura as an uke. He's aggressive and sexy. I like how he's become more tamed for Endou, that he would no longer sleep around unlike before. I liked the 2nd story's seme, Ikeuchi-san. He's successful, intellectual, devoted and passionate. He's also mature. I'd want to be spoiled by him, too. XD

This love-hate relationship. Oh, so complicated. In another perspective, it may be assumed that at some point, Mookyul was in love with Pres, that's why when Sangchul said about him being Pres' lover, he was agitated to ask if the Pres himself told him they were lovers. Because that's how he wanted to be, ever since they started having sexual relations. However, he can't just assume he's his lover when he hasn't said it himself. That's why all he could do was become his dog. Not even a son! Because he himself knows that a father is not supposed to have those relations with a son. So he's left at being a dog. Because he can only act how Pres wants him too. He's craving for the love that Pres is making him feel, but not completely. He has sex with others because he wants Pres to actually care about it and tell him to stop. That he's supposed to do those things only to him. Well, in a way, I guess he holds on to the hope that Pres will own him completely, so he only takes the seme role, to preserve his manhole only to the Pres. It's like, he'd only uke to the Pres. Well, he did tell Ewon that he's willing to take the uke role for him (signifying his love for Ewon has surpassed his love for Pres), but we still haven't seen it happen. In another DJ, there was a time where Ewon was seducing him and Mookyul asked if he wanted to top, and Ewon said yes.. He agreed, but only with a condition that Ewon is yet to surpass. I wish he'd just really let Ewon top him because I'm too bothered by my theory that Pres will be the only one to top him all his life.. Ugh.. : edit: 06/16/19 ~ It's now clear that Mookyul was never an uke and never had penetrative sex with Pres.. But I'm still hurt over it, 'cos I still consider doing everything else to be cheating. Uggggh.. I mean, I understand their point, but still can't accept it personally. It's just so unfair. On one hand, I want Mookyul to finally have his lover after all that he's been through, but on the other hand, I don't want him to be with Ewon 'cos he just can't leave Pres and whatever they do behind. Ughhhhh