kei_k's manga / #Yaoi(445)

start: 11/18/18 up: 11/18/18~ ch6 ~ Pretty rape-y (though it's pretty much brushed off as something not that offensive), but the scenes are definitely hot.. Made me laugh a lot of times, too, so it's pretty enjoyable..

start/end: 11/19/18 prequel: http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hush_today/ ** Ahhh, young love. (lol, I sound so old.) I just want to watch them all day long.. I felt irked about the stolen kiss, but I'm super glad Juhyun made his stance and drew the line right there and then. It was funny how Dowoon kissed Jigoo as a revenge, too, and Juhyun was worried hat Jigoo liked Dowoon's kiss better than his. lol. IRL, it's be so annoying to deal with, but I'm glad they sorted their problems out together and not drag the misunderstandings further..

start/end: 12/03/18 Super adorable, except for the forced BJ in the beginning... Granted, Kawachi showed remorse and worked hard to show his sincerity, but I thought, it would've been better overall if not for that. Maybe a forced kiss would've been fine... BJ is just.. But oh, well, it was nice overall. I also liked how, instead of running away and moping by himself when Shinozaki witnessed Azuma kissing Kawachi, he immediately snooped in and punched Azuma while boldly claiming Kawachi. XD Way to go~ It's also nice that the "uke" remained manly, or well, like himself, even after the switch. 'Cos in a lot of cases, the "uke" is portrayed to be more feminine or stray away from their original character after the switch... Gonna read the split-off for Azuma~ Spin-Off: Ore no Kirai na Senpai http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/ore_no_kirai_na_senpai/

start: 12/03/18 up: 12/03/18 ~ch5 OG: http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/yowamushi_danshi_renai_hajimemasu/

start: 02/15/19 fin: 02/17/19 ~ I'm not sure how to rate this one.. Reading this was confusing and frustrating at times, but I can understand why it took them so long and done so much just to be together. This totally lives up to that relationship status: It's Complicated. This manga shows how scary love is. In fear that a romantic relationship may not last long, just like their past relationships, they agree to stay as friends and pretend that they don't know of each other's feelings. After all, having a one-sided love yet being together seems more appealing than having it reciprocated but still breaking up sooner or later. They keep their "love" in the boundary that does not cross the romantic relationship (which they both had - with women), to maintain the status quo - being together and feeling "unrequited love" deep within. Personally, I think I feel more comfortable being in an unrequited love, too, rather than being in an actual relationship because when you commit, you subconsciously expect to receive the same things you give. And when you feel like you give so much more than you receive, you feel disappointed and may even start doubting if you really should stay with that person. But if you are in an unrequited love, you'd still hurt. But at least, you have an excuse that it's totally expected and you don't desire more. Greed and jealousy. The more you love, the more you may feel insecure, if you yourself are incomplete. Unlike with unrequited love, you feel like you have the right to be greedy for your partner's time and feelings. You feel it's natural to feel jealous when your partner gives attention to someone else. You feel that that person should belong solely to you, just as you devote yourself solely to him. But guess what, the world is so much bigger than the two of you. So in order to fight alongside that person and make your relationship survive 'til the end, you should first learn to accept and love yourself. Even the sides of you that you never expected to have. You can't please everybody, and when you love, you can't avoid hurting someone. You just have to bear with it and choose wisely. .

start/fin: 03/25/19 ~ My heart broke over and over while reading, and I imagined different scenarios because of this manga, so I got hurt even more.. Even so, I'm glad they eventually had a happy ending (for now at least~)... Ahhh, it's been a long time since I really liked something like this.. I mean, unlike other manga, I don't even know a lot about these characters.. But after seeing them go through this ordeal over and over, I just got attached to them and supported them. Ahh, I want more... T_T I guess I'll have to imagine the rest..

start/fin : 03/26/19 Hmm there was an assault in vol 1.. Uke forced seme, though I think seme actually just gave in. Anyway, glad they spent time apart after that. At least it wasn't that unrealistic, like just brushing it off and getting together regardless. They at least had time to think by themselves. Kon-chan looked so much better with his short hair 3 years later. Just my opinion. :p Anyway, he's kinda passive, but I liked that he controlled himself well and thought about taking it slow with Shuu instead of being the typical out-of-control-in-bed seme. :p

start/end: 04/03/19 T_T It hurt to imagine this happening, what more IRL. :( Especially the part where... C'mon.. It was Akira who first "fell in love" with Yuuki despite being straight.. So knowing that same guy break up with him saying they weren't really gay anyway broke my heart. It felt like, even if someone pursues you, claiming he's so in love with you and is willing to do anything, in the end, people still change, and so do their feelings. There's no guarantee that you'll always stay the same in their heart. I guess this is why it's really hard for me to imagine myself being with someone again anytime soon. I just feel like I'd just waste time being with someone I won't end up with anyway.. Ugh, got totally sidetracked.. But anyway, I'll keep this in my favorite list. Just to remind me how being afraid of "losing" someone to the point that some will choose to drive them away instead, is just useless. It's better to spend time creating memories with your special someone rather than overthinking of the uncertainties of the future.

start: 04/06/19 up: 04/09/19 ~ ch 21