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YEAH THIS IS IT I LOVE HORROR AND ITS A ROFAN SETTING?????? Girl im seated

NOW THATS CINEMA RAHHHHHHHHH This story unfolded like a damn movie its so fluid and it rlly keeps you by the edge of your seat until the end, such an addicting page turner. 10/10, straight into the magnum opus of bls. I LOVE the plot, the world building, the characters, the relationships and the ending TTTT THE ENDINGGGG everything is so bittersweet and poignant, god i love it, the epilogue rlly gave us such a nice closure to it all. God i LOVE sak’s character. The way the author presented his character at first rlly fooled the readers into thinking he was this poor selfless and harmless mc HSJSN THEN SIKE the plot twist and his lack of empathy to everything except for lima happened and its SAUR fuckin good. THE BORDERLINE YAN BEHAVIOUR RAHHHHH love how instead of the ml being batshit insane, its the mc instead wooo!!!! Lima’s chara is also lowkey insane too bc he is so in love for sak even after everything hes seen from him lmao a total ride of die for eachother especially with the “i was made for you” “my life is yours” AHHH the joongdokfication of it all ITS SOOOOOOO DELICIOUS i love this dynamic so much,,,, yan mc and the string thats keeping mc grounded,,, author COOKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love the angst too, its so well written, especially with how cornered u really feel with lima and sak’s situation. Im so happy the author made them run away (elope) together,,, with the way the world was built, it only makes sense for them to run away, especially with the way lima’s resolution being “running away, then finding a place i can die on my own terms” LIKE HELL YEAH!!!! The whole cliff scene was great, the angst the tension the drama the twist!!!!!!!!!! The whump!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It reminded me of hannigram almost ,,, the final episode,,, the trust and yearning and devotion and acceptance they had for eachother,,, any scene in a bl with a cliff oh you know its gonna be phenomenal lmao Ahhh would love to see fic aus of other ships with this story, its rlly so good…… the gray morality of everything is fucking great as well bc CMAWN its literally the apocalypse in a way,, shit isnt gonna be black or white, and the author did that so well. author i love you !!!!! I fucking love unconventional love stories!!!!! ALSO The callback to sak’s beginning monologue but instead its lima’s now too and how both of their thoughts are similar is so so fucking heart wrenching bc !!! LOOK AT THEM!!! they dont need an amplifier to be on the same wavelength with each other,,, Its like those soulmate/fated stories of “had it not been fate, would u still choose me” and here even though they never verbally expressed their affection (i mean, makes sense with how they grew up), its SO clear how much they still love each other even after everything, its clear with how devoted lima is with sak and how sak is slowly adapting to not relying on the amplifier to communicate with lima. Sak might have been attracted to lima at first due to him being a caller but once everything was null, u can see his fondness growing and even if its not and saks feeling is still ambiguous, its still such a satisfying and nice way to express their relationship. With the world being as dark and grim as it is, the attraction they have and their desperation and devotion to their companionship (ay joongdok) is SO fucking romantic and feels so much more charged than a regular “yeah we like each other we are officially dating!” Kind of a way… its so good…hes a lil slow but Like sak’s getting there!! lima’s there to keep him in check of his yan tendencies lmao They have forever with each other!!! Let them wander together forever…,,, still love the beginning and ending monologue cant stop thinking about it MHM chefs kiss what a nice finishing touch author TTTT god after some of the stories ive read, this was almost like cinematic masterpiece lmao i was engaged as hell. For a good 80 chapters, author cooked and delivered above and beyond lmao. Especially for this supernatural/apocalypse genre!!!!! Love the open ending for sak and lima. Such a perfect ending. I hope they’ll never get caught !!!!!!!!!! EVER!!!!! Good for them!!!!! Give them their makoto shinkai anime movie!!!!!

Wrote so much rambling abt this but then shit happened and its gone so im gonna try to write it again with hopes i capture the gist of how i felt when i read this I cant believe that i put off from reading this for so long oh my god. All because i thought it was gonna be a silly little pwp trope bc cmon cum with pearls? But NAUR author set up the most heinous and exploitative situation jooha could be in and its heart breaking to read him go thru it all TTTT dooshik’s background and character was interesting too bc this guy has his flaws LMAO flirtatious, vulgar and arrogant as hell at times but GOD is he so lovable. Both jooha and dooshik are one of the most lovable characters ive ever read so far, aside from shin and wolfgang from kings maker. The depth these characters have is fucking stunning, dooshik’s dedication and stubbornness in making things Work for him and jooha is so so sweet and endearing bc this mf became a gangster for him. PLEASE its so TTTTTTTT usually in bl, one will be the love interest and the mc and the love interest would just get the childhood backstory and thats it but this??? BRO jooha and dooshik carried the shit out of this story, theyre both such good mcs in carrying the plot its SO SO SO GOOD. Author developed their characters and relationships perfectly. Their intimacy and banter and sex was such a joy to read, it felt authentic almost? Especially the casual way in how they disagree in things and the way they address each other in mundane convo. Its so fucking good yall lmao, writing such seamless dialogue like that is a feat in itself and the author ate it UPPP and usually i’d be happy enough with the great dialogue but NO the author mfkin COOKED SOME MOREEEE. Art is fucking GORGEOUS. I couldnt stop staring at how beautiful dooshik is drawn. THATS MY HIMBO BABY GIRL. He is SO FUCKING COOL, especially in later seasons where he became a gangster hes fucking ruthless its sos sexy??? RAHHHHHHH felt like reading a shounen manhwa in some scenes, he was that badass lmao. and hes the perfect lover for someone like jooha THEYRE JUST SO PERFECT FOR EACHOTHER all the fluffy scenes of them enjoying life is so so cute TT the singing in the car scene was especially dear to me its just so cute. Dooshik is such a big lover boy and the fact that he can finally be as doting as he wants with jooha is so so cute TTT NOW THE DAMN ANTAGONISTS. Oh author cooked in this one too lmao its been a good while since an antagonist pissed me off this badly LMAO pilwon deserves the shit daekwang and daehui went thru like the fact that he died off screen felt foul. Thats the only thing i have a problem with this story LMAO i want this mf to rot in jail yo. The amount of times i yelled at the screen for dooshik to record his convo with pilwon is shjdjdjdj LIKE SET HIM BACK UP??? i need to isekai in this story just so that jooha and dooshik can be happy and in love in peace TT sure the twins got shit handed back to them and it feels great but i’d rather author scrap it to include pilwon’s demise instead ykwim? And speaking of this, one thing im rlly happy that the author did was minimizing backstory of certain characters? Like pilwon in jooha’s life and eunwoo in dooshik’s life. Both experiences were just shitty and instead of prolonging it to some 3 chapter backstory author made it short and sweet and enough for the reader to gauge the entire situation in our head. Author is VERY good at giving bits of info instead of holding our hand thru it. I LOVE that approach lmao. Sometimes, shitty ppl dont need some in depth chara backstory, theyre just shitty people full stop. NOW THE STARS OF THIS STORY. Seunghyun and jaepil deserves so much more merch of their own LIKE GET DAEKWANG AND DAEHUI OUTTA THERE, SEUNGHYUN AND JAEPIL STOLE THE SHOW FOR ME I LOVE THEM SO MUCH????? They had so much potential to be a side couple especially with how much seunghyun is obviously pining for jaepil ITS CRAZYDBDNND we rlly couldve had some old man yaoi action….. give them a spinoff author.., please………. THEYRE TEW GOOD????? love how they were written so much in the conflict, it rly felt like a solid power struggle with pilwon for gangnam, shit was STRESSFUL. And with what jooha has gone thru, it rlly gives the readers this sinking feeling bc theres stakes and consequences to this. I love it when authors do that especially with a genre like this. This amps up even more with jooha struggling with his ptsd. I LOVE the scene where jooha went to get treated for it and is TRYING so hard to move on from it. It adds so much more depth and authenticity in joohas character, i love it so much TTT Now . The ending. Its so bittersweet like tears were definitely shedjdjjd. It feels like a small mercy and act of kindness from the universe to have jooha forget the most traumatic moments of his life. Hes finally able to relive back his youth in a more safe and loving environment with dooshik. And dooshik being hellbent in making jooha happy and rewriting all of his initial memories with pilwon. That shit fucking hurt bc good for jooha but GOD i want to give a hug to dooshik TTTT hes the one bearing the trauma for the both of them and with his character, as much as he misses the og jooha, he’d rather see this jooha who laughs more freely and happily with no worries. Hes okay with it and you KNOW he wont say a peep about their past to maintain the happiness jooha is having TTT its so heartbreakingly bittersweet..,,, especially knowing dooshiks character development,, (a bingqiu/yuan au of this would be so sickening mhm) AND AND the plunge into the ice cold water at the end where jooha finally remembers again his og memories is so . I WANNA CRY. “Its good to see you again” ITS KKEUT. SCENE!!!!! Its ambiguous but such a happy and bittersweet ambiguous ending in a way, bc jooha remembers again and theyre together and happy and moving on and thats all that matters rlly….. good for them TTT after all they went thru, a win is a win and i’ll take it LMAO it feels good too to end it that way bc jooha and dooshik deserve to have this moment of respite with eachother away from privy eyes (readers) and this subtle, open ending is perfect for them TTTT im really satisified with the ending and even extras,,, uwa TTT it was brief but im glad jooha experienced a new set of fond memories of his youth with dooshik in it. GOOD FOR THEM!!!!!! Rlly cant judge a story by its description and people commenting bc it all comes down to your own reading comprehension of it and to see people lack it and be loud abt it rlly ruins a story so im glad i went in this blind!!!! Author aced everything imo, from the plot, the characters and their dynamics, their developments, their conflict, the dialogues, the art AND panels,, all of it is fucking gorgeous. The conflict is stellar bc each of the characters motifs felt charged and had weight in it. Its SOLID and i fucking love it LMAO. jooha’s grit and dooshik’s determination to survive thru it all so that they can be free and happy is done so tastefully. The dark shit was great i love Everything abt it!!! Author went ham with it bro. With how everything unfolded like a movie, it makes sense that the author spent majority of the week planning the story board bc BRO, the foreshadowing and panelling is to DIE for. Its a cinematic masterpiece its fucking good??? Angles are dynamic and fun with equally engaging dialogue and monologues. Im singing praises bc author did their damn fucking thing???? Its amazing???? To see this level of detail in its art, plot and characters in just 90 chapters. no dilly dallying, none of that. Straightforward but not the point of spoon feeding your audience. Author is insane LMAO im definitely looking forward to more of their works, bc this being their first long series is just crazy. 10/10, straight into bl’s magnum opuses. Its fucking good LMAO. Deserves an anime. Deserves a kdrama even lol. Shit was like a MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!! I love u author….. definitely gonna remember this story and characters (dooshik and jooha my sweethearts) for a long time<3

THIS IS IT !!!!! RICH CONFIDENT BOSSWIFE AND HER BABYGIRL MOEGAP BEAR OF A ML A MATCH MADE IN HEAVENNNNNNNNN oh u know the plot and dynamic and art is about to eat when the authors pull this kind of couple dynamic AND ITS FAKE DATING TOO oh we’re really in it now yall!!!!!!!!! Its about to be good!!!!!!!!! Been so obsessed with this artist’s artworks bc the panelling and character design they do is fucking gorgeous and lo and behold they once again never fail!!!!!!! Finally an artist that makes the character design and colour palette cohesive and stylish for the characters!!!! Ilya is a beautiful mc and karhan is one of the most gorgeous and handsome ml ive seen in a while! Feels like a breath of fresh air here LMAO im so seated for this story yall i cant wait to see how the romance is gonna unfold especially with how shy and easily flustered karhan is LMAO my babygirl…. Youre doing so well… Also unrelated but i need to see the artist tackle in a bl project bc ilya’s brother hayley would be a stunning mc for a bl omg the tsun type mc.. give him and rehart a bl spinoff and we’re about to make bank LOL

the way the author wrote haruki and kentarou’s characters and relationship is so down to earth and mature, like wow the communication and the subtle personal conflict? Theres no big drama, no ups or downs, the mood of the story stayed the same till the end but it wasnt bad? Its just so pleasant and cute and soft and nice especially in the way kentarou fell for haruki, all of it were just panels where he quietly gazes at him, looking so damn enamored the art style is damn gorgeous too wawawawawa i love this story so much kentarou’s chara design is so damn handsome too AGHHHHHHH please let this have a live action drama please its just too damn cute … we as a society truly need more little forest-adjacent bls pls its the cure to mankind

YESSSSSSSSS YAOI MAFIA LETS FUCKING GOOOOOO

Oh big buff beastmen and his small twink human??? AND found family??????? this is for sure a certified banger

Its so clearly obvious that its the ml’s second life and hes repenting it by treating the mc well. Im not too convinced that hes doing this out of love, hes definitely wallowing in guilt bc from the pieces of flashbacks mc dreamed, ml was straight up dog shit. Absolutely irredeemable and knowing mc’s personality, i doubt he’d be all kumbaya about it after remembering his memories. Rip to ml bc u may think youre absolving yourself of the guilt from the past by being all hubby hubby with mc but the victim u tormented would nawwwwwt let u off easy at awwwl lmao im looking forward for the day mc tears apart the ml!!! I hopeeeee author rlly comes thru with the future fallout bc so far im obsessed with the way the author wrote the mc, he has zero self perseverance and has the most self deprecating smile all the while still maintaining a front to show how unbothered he is with everything. Such blorbo material that u cant help to see be bullied with angst its giving kdj and sqq core so much omg…their mls are down to a T too LMAO not only that mc carries himself with a solid backbone! Like hes rlly doing his best with the cards hes given and i respect him for that. Such a solid mc, i lov him………. Now the ml,,,,,, boy u have a shit ton to explain once that backstory chapter hits bc what the fuckkkk is that behaviour lmao like shit hit the fan so much that based on the hints given, mc clearly killed himself with ml’s gun in the past. Suicide BECAUSE of the ml. Oh i hope author went into detail on how much that tormented ml bc nahhhhhhhhhhh i need this mf to be on his knees groveling for 20+ chapters straight. With all the stress and trauma mc’s carrying, he deserves so much better…………. Ml i need u to count your fuckin days dawg…. Author better cook up a solid redemption arc for him or else its kkeut

THIS STORYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A masterclass in pacing anatomy and dialogue. ch45’s final panel was fucking heart breaking. MY GOD. Amazing writing amazing pacing amazing dialogue amazing sex scenes amazing couple chemistry amazing showcase of intimacy everything is just beyond amazing. The atmosphere carried in the story was such a delight too. Author is in a whole other league???? I remember being in chapter 25 or somethinf and thinking oh Wow plot is progressing rlly smoothly so far are we in chapter 40+ already? BUT NO… and it doesnt even feel rushed???? The pacing in each panel serves just the right amount of info and context without overcomplicating unnecessary flashbacks and details. Its fucking fluid???? Im in shock??? Like entering this story especially with the silly alien plot i rlly thought itd be a lighthearted read and it was at first in season 1 but then slowly the parallels of sihwa’s view on family/his dad with soohan’s own is so well done!!!! The fact that the overarching theme is “to just be/to let go of your past and move on” is just beyond brilliant???? And to pair it with the burdening relationship one has with filial piety?? My god. Soohan’s arc with his father was nauseating and it was needed to dismantle the ideology/belief soohan had on what he Thought “filial piety” is. The whole entire conflict is just so so well written????????? Especially the way it resolved?????? I loved it as much as it stressed me out lmao AND I HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN INTO THE SEX SCENES YET????? Anatomy is crazy sex positions was the most dynamic and fluid ive ever seen. Author KNOWS how to draw gorgeous cocks (uncircumsized sihwa ily thank you so much) What else is there so say? The intimacy soohan and sihwa had for each other felt overwhelmingly natural and domestic and intimate its just sooooooo delicious and satisfying to see. It adds so much depth to a couple’s dynamic TTT i wish more authors explore more with intimate touches/pillow talk/sex positions bc it rlly establishes a more solid ground on how your characters interact with each other. They felt alive and moving. God im just obssessed???? Author i adore you!!!!!!!!!!!! All the characters are soooo goddamn lovable too. Gabin my beloved baby who has the tism, u are my everything. Soohan my steadfast responsible good natured sweetheart. Sihwa my silly mild-tsun mannered babygirl. Their dynamic and interaction is perfection. They just bounce off of eachother’s energy so damn well. Its just too good. The romantic chemistry will forever be ingrained in my head. It left an insane impression LMAO thats how good it is. Top 5 bls easily. Get this bl a fucking animation deal

One of the few works ive read that instantly made me BEG and PRAY they get some sort of adaptation soon PLEASE. Characters are written so well, plot is fucking good, conflict is great, sexual tension is off the roof. Its a page turner for sure!!! Love the overarching theme of “morality has its different hues of black white and gray” and how both seheon and yunshin influence each others way of thinking and simultaneously the way they approach their work. The character development was so satisfying to see especially seheon’s, and i love how his character development isnt too jarring. Hes still snarky lmao reminds me of geonwoo/ahjusshi from dangerous konbini. His rising conflict after seeing yunshin following exactly the way doguk operates and how it made him feel terrible is the cherry on top!!!!!! Wallow in that discomfort and guilt seheon!! His constant anxiety(?) in thinking that yunshin is dating him so that he can resolve his sister’s problem is handled so well too!! Love how whenever he starts getting snarky about invoices and shit hes always met with yunshins sweet doe eyed face going :3? Like my boy is just too good for this world yunshin’s confession is so sweet too and i love how desperate and yearning seheon looks whenever yunshin waves him goodbye xD i love it!!! Please make him wallow in more yearning!! The conflict is so so good too… i love how the romance is in the bg of the story in certain chapters, it carries conflict and romance so well… and the chemistry with both characters are insane and the banters are hilarious LOL seheon really is a deadpan face asshole but all that bark is rlly bc he loves riling up yunshin lmaooo. AHHH my favourite sunshine mc x tsun grumpy ml trope and this story does it justice… i rly have to reread this again once it fully updates its just so damn good and with r18 tls too ahhh easily one of the best bls ive read this year. Give the author their flowers and get this story a fucking kdrama deal STAT