Talk To Yourself

im so frustrated that its now mainstream.

i'll probably get hate for this and i'm happy to read your thoughts on this subject, but hear me out.

ive been reading yaoi since five years ago. ive read it and fangirl among my highschool friends, silently since yaoi wasn't mainstream as it is now. for years, we had to hide it but of course as we grew comfortable, we got too carried away. people used to silently judge us for it, looking at us with those disgusted eyes, calling us "weirdos."

BUT NOW, even those people who looked at us with those eyes, look at the same (or at least the popular ones tbh) bl and yaoi that they judged us for. im GENUINELY HAPPY THAT they read it now and they express the same fangirl or fanboy feeling in reading these masterpieces, but im so frustrated and angry that it becomes unfathomable. it hurts so bad tbh.

skl i saw this post on fb, "akala ko homophobic ka gurl?" (i thought you were homophobic, gurl?) i dont really approve of this since we can all change our views as we become even more mature, but oh how satisfying was this.

i dont mean to bash the new fujos and fudans, honestly, welcome to the community!! feel free to grab a seme or uke or seke on your way out.

but please, if youve ever done this to someone before and now read it (or it doesnt have to be just yaoi), please apologize or reach out to them. ik it isn't your duty to do so, and you may do as you please, but just...don't look down on people anymore for the things they like.

lot of love <33

y'all ever felt as if no one cares about you? like even if you disappear, no one would notice?

Yo, I've been drawing this quarantine and I'm feeling great but this past few weeks, I'm losing motivation. I feel like I'm getting bad at this and I can't seem to draw what I really wanted. It feels like I'm back to zero where everything is a mess. I can't even draw a proper face even tho this is the easiest part for me. I've been saving a lot of reference but I keep messing it up. I want to go back in the zone again, what did you do when this happened?