Real Life Problems

Hey y'all, never really shared anything with anyone and it's k!lling me....my parents have always been the dictator of my life... Like whether I should pee or not, whether I could breath or not everything..... they've also been abusive but that's a story of some other day. Recently I finished high school and my parents are forcing me to study nursing which I hate... I don't have it in me to study 24/7 for a degree that I hate from the core of my heart.... I absolutely hate the idea of doing 72 hours shift with thankless labour.... I can't ran away from home either, I don't have anywhere else to go... I don't have friends I could rely on, I've never been outside much since I'm not allowed to so I'm not street smart either...I don't have anyone other than these parents... I've tried my best to make them understand that this is k!lling me and making it hard for me but they won't understand they will make me go into nursing.... At this point I feel like self deleting myself... What do I do? Will I be forever at their clutch??
P.s. I'm dirt poor from a third world country that is also Muslim... I hate this.... Why is my life like this? Why can other people live the way they want and I can't??? I can't breath here... Help me what do I do?? Should I be the good kid and except everything? I really don't have any other options... What do I do?