School Is Stressful

I study but I don’t remember anything I feel dead because I don’t have any life in me my days goes and goes just for me to do nothing and hurt myself people are mean to me my classmates don’t talk coz my current rank is low I don’t remember the last time I had a proper friend let alone a best friend.
The quarterly results are not even out yet but I know it’s bad my rank will probably drop again my head hurts just thinking about the teachers nagging me in front of the class I’m already labelled as a dumb idiot who can’t do basic equations I don’t know how to face my problems whenever I think about moving forward it just goes back to the way it was.

(long vent).

Final exams are just around the corner and I am terrified... like, no kidding, I'm SERIOUSLY so fucking stressed right now. I’m so scared that things won't go well or that I’ll end up with terrible grades
and what makes it so much worse is my parents. they are pressuring me to get the best grades in class-like, they expect me to definitionally be rank #1. the weight of their expectations and this constant pressure is just making me so afraid of failing, and I'm losing my mind over it

i honestly don't know what to do... I know the obvious answer is "just study," and well, i know that, but it doesn't change the fact that this whole situation is making me so anxious about the upcoming exams. It's gotten to the point where this anxiety is making me feel physically sick and feverish

Yes, i know im venting on mangago dot com that is a yaoi site, but still i just want to vent... also i dont mind if yall have any advice