Being Trans

hello I hope everyone it’s having a wonderful day!i want to ask a few questions to all the trans males out there

how did u realized u were a trans male? how did u cope with all the overwhelming thoughts? does the dysphoria ever comes back or goes away?if u have a religious family or homophobic did u ever managed to come out to them?
and if could, can u share ur experiences? If it’s too personal u don’t have to say it!

I’m asking this bc for the past months I’ve been having gender dysphoria and honestly it’s killing me
I can’t even look at my body without breaking down or having this huge feeling of disconnection between my body and my gender identity, the thoughts of “you will never be a boy”nobody will accept u” and much more are just horrible, my dad + step mom are very religious people, and when I mentioned them “what if I end up also liking girls” my dad almost slapped me, I didn’t even got the chance to speak ab my gender dysphoria bc prob they would’ve just taken me to see the priest,
and also where do u find a binder, is it safe for me to use?


if there’s any advice u could give me even if it’s just one I would appreciate it