Do you guys ever feel that you are the scum of this earth. A meaningless existence taking up space. A potential that is now lost. The dreams u had as a child (a loner, nerd and bullied kid) to be a new version of yourself as an adult that didn't suck (a successful woman...) and was confident.
Most importantly growing up to no longer hating yourself....but then you grow up.
And you're still ugly, still a loner and you find out that your dreams are shared by other people and they are better at them than you ever were.
So you are left with longing...for what was your passion and sense of loss...losing your silver lining that you have it all figured out.
Slowly, the doubt and anxiety starts creeping in...rejection after rejection after rejection. Even the hobbies you tried for fun feel dreadful or a waste of time. The parties and the crowds are overstimulating yet you feel alone...and tired. You can't even speak what's on your mind. Every sentence fidgety with uhs and ums.
Finally you return to your nest, a safe haven, your bed and you lie there helplessly. Realising how you're so ordinary and behind your peers that had belief in themselves even if their potential wasn't greater than yours. And you ponder over your purpose of life or was there ever any?
You reflect on what went wrong and you see yourself in the mirror. "Maybe it was me all along," you find yourself saying...looking at the child you had tried to kill the whole time.
Most importantly growing up to no longer hating yourself....but then you grow up.
And you're still ugly, still a loner and you find out that your dreams are shared by other people and they are better at them than you ever were.
So you are left with longing...for what was your passion and sense of loss...losing your silver lining that you have it all figured out.
Slowly, the doubt and anxiety starts creeping in...rejection after rejection after rejection. Even the hobbies you tried for fun feel dreadful or a waste of time. The parties and the crowds are overstimulating yet you feel alone...and tired. You can't even speak what's on your mind. Every sentence fidgety with uhs and ums.
Finally you return to your nest, a safe haven, your bed and you lie there helplessly. Realising how you're so ordinary and behind your peers that had belief in themselves even if their potential wasn't greater than yours. And you ponder over your purpose of life or was there ever any?
You reflect on what went wrong and you see yourself in the mirror. "Maybe it was me all along," you find yourself saying...looking at the child you had tried to kill the whole time.
pissing on the bed
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04 09,2026
Do yall ever just hate everything
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30 07,2026
Do yall ever just hate everything
[Answer]
30 07,2026
Do yall ever just hate everything
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30 07,2026
"I’d only be happy if I never existed in the first place"
If you never existed you would not be happy, A thing that does not exist can never be anything.
If you wanna do something big that's fine, but think about what you said for a second.
If its more easy to see yourself making an entire factory blow up than you can see "fixing" your life, d...... reply
Do yall ever just hate everything
[Answer]
30 07,2026
Do yall ever just hate everything
[Answer]
30 07,2026
Do yall ever just hate everything
[Answer]
30 07,2026
Do yall ever just hate everything
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30 07,2026
More of a rant but everything in my life brings me no joy and all I can do is sit and think about how I’d only be happy if I never existed in the first place. I don’t overly hate myself or feel the urge to kill myself but I just don’t care about anything anymore. Tbh my plan for life was to do what I’ve been told to and if it lands me somewhere bad I’d just end it there. All my family does is anger me, my friends all annoy me more and more, I’m scared of each day that’ll come to pass, I don’t want to be seen as nothing but i also don’t want to be acknowledged. Maybe doing something crazy before I die would be fitting, like exploding a gum factory causing some big accident, so I at least have some sort of acknowledgment after dead (jk I’d never do something illegal-well besides manga pirating)
