Do yall ever just hate everything

More of a rant but everything in my life brings me no joy and all I can do is sit and think about how I’d only be happy if I never existed in the first place. I don’t overly hate myself or feel the urge to kill myself but I just don’t care about anything anymore. Tbh my plan for life was to do what I’ve been told to and if it lands me somewhere bad I’d just end it there. All my family does is anger me, my friends all annoy me more and more, I’m scared of each day that’ll come to pass, I don’t want to be seen as nothing but i also don’t want to be acknowledged. Maybe doing something crazy before I die would be fitting, like exploding a gum factory causing some big accident, so I at least have some sort of acknowledgment after dead (jk I’d never do something illegal-well besides manga pirating)