Do you guys ever wanted to disappear into void

Do you guys ever wanted to disappear into void or suicide when you fight with your parents bc you don't have anybody else other than them to rely on.

I don't fight with them often but when I do, I really lose myself and end up wanting to die or vanish for a while bc it feels like I'm a total stranger to this world, to my room, to everything and feel like going to home but there's nowhere to go, I can't run away from them or suicide (because I don't have the guts and there isn't really any way I can.) I just end up hurting myself and realising that I'm lonely af. I need some friends I suppose.