How did you react to your first really detailed yaoi scenes?

So for me the first Yoai i read with smut didn't have super detailed smut. It had ropes tho. So this was me *Sees scene*(⊙…⊙ ) *shuts off phone* 5 minutes after curling into a ball contemplating about how wrong this was to read. *Opens phone sees that whole webtoon is smut* o_o no. But then after like a week i came back and I slowly would rea......   reply