Are you also suicidal but...

yk i get that you are really in a low state of mind but please put a trigger warning, there a lot of minors here and you never know what is going to happen   reply

Yeah I think like that sometimes...taking my own life takes too much courage and but I'd rather do than instead of waiting to naturally die early. I'm not planning to die yet though, I'll just let my future self decide if he still wants to disappear   reply

Second-hand suicide? I finally found a word for it. Honestly, im too much of a coward to hurt myself but if someone will do it for me (preferable when im unaware) then they are very much welcome.   reply

Yep definitely I was having these kind of thoughts since 7 you know things like "I would like to die instantly without suffering" but never imagined myself dying bc of old age and all.   reply

y e s   reply