what is my sexuality

I am sexually and romantically attracted to men but I also get off of seeing women kiss and rub their bodies together. Women are so much easier to like compared to men be it their personality or their looks but I don't feel any romantic feelings for them no matter how much I try to imagine. It always feels platonic whereas I can easily fall for men doing the bare minimum, ofc i don't pursue them cause of it, I'm not dumb but you get what I mean right?
I want to love women and be bisexual but i just can't genetically lmao help-
Also sometimes I feel like my urge to like women is simply cause of being influenced by the LGBTQ community, idk.

anyways, feeling this way about your sexuality, is it just me or there are others too?