am i crazy or..

I know they’re not real. I KNOW this. And yet, here I am, spiraling because I saw a sad TikTok edit of Gojo and Geto today, and now my whole mood is in the gutter. Like, their story is so fucking tragic, and the worst part?? Nothing could’ve changed it. They were doomed. That’s it. Game over.

And it’s not just them. Any character with a tragic ending or some irreversible fate that just is what it is takes me out SO bad. It makes me feel crazy because it’s like when real people die—you will never, EVER see them happy again. No fix-it, no resolution. Just permanent sadness. (And don't get me started on au fanfics. I know). Like, my brain understands that they’re fictional, but my heart is out here acting like I lost a childhood friend.

And I don’t even think I’m that empathetic irl??? Or am I subconsciously??? Idk. I see these characters suffer, and it physically hurts. I get so attached, maybe even parasocially (cringe we get it), but when bad shit happens to them, I feel GUTTED. It’s like how I’m majorly depressed but still manage to do what I need to do even with non existent motivation because life just keeps moving and I have shit I need to do regardless of how I'm feeling.
In the sense that I feel this way, but don't display crazy irl.

Idk, man. Maybe I’m actually losing it. Does anyone else get like this, or am I just crazy