Being trans, and never experiencing teen love.
Odd place to rant, but it’s not tied to anything so to me it’s perfect.
I’ve been having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I’ll never have someone to like, or date, or even have interest in me (atleast as a teen, but I’m seeing most likely my entire life). Mostly due to the fact I am Transmasc.
I have had people say they’ve thought I was cute (happened to me today), but become immediately put off or disgusted by the fact I identify as a male. I live in the us, and trans care is pretty much nonexistent (cobbled together with the fact I’m in a conservative household) .
Like fuck, I just feel so hopeless, I’ve just graduated and I’ve never liked a single person, and any chance I’ve had they meet me with interest, which turns into disgust or mockery. I feel like I’m missing out on one of the core experiences as a human being it hurts. (Yes I understand asexual/aromantic people exist, which I could possibly be, but atleast give me a chance to figure it out)
I just wanna know if others feel similarly to my situation. I’m filled with envy and I don’t want to be, I just want a normal life like the rest of us. Anyways that’s it thanks for looking at my stupid rant if your here.
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Not that deep bro chill. Lot of people don't experience teen love even tho everyone should. But it's not end of the world. You are just feeling "FOMO" and overthinking it. I'm straight i never experienced teen love either it has nothing to do with sexuality. Tho i never felt envious of anyone's relationship there was a time where i wanted to date so badly but the dating pool was so so bad (school circle) i gave up. And correct me if I'm wrong "identifying" isn't equals to being trans? ( Sorry I'm not trying to come out as rude at any way I'm just confused).
Hope for the best dw. I'm form believer of love will find you irrespective of time. So just let it be. Focus on yourself.
I see, and yeah i definitely think it’s due to fomo. But like, if it was just I’m ugly and had bad personality I’d understand. But what I’m mostly angry about is the fact that I’ve had chances, but because of my identity they’ve essentially marked me as bad. Like if I was just straight and cis I’d be able to get play. No point in thinking abt it now I was just kinda ranting because it was 3:00 am. I’m truly the chud of the century.
The heck chud means honestly. Bcs here in my natives it means Fucked.