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Man, having depression is so fucking weird
I was thinking yk, the answer to not feel like ass all day is to go out, drink water, eat food and maintain a good environment
It sounds so easy, right?
So, even if my whole body feels like colapsing and I'm drowning in tears bc idk, a sudden wave of sadness hits me, I still try to do those things
So, I went out, I read a book, I ate and drank water and I was so happy the whole day
So why tf is it that out of nowhere I feel sad
It's like, you do everything by the book, you read and study for days and days and you feel prepared, but still fail the test
Why the hell is my cat is licking my tears bro
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so like i like my guy friend he approached me first and told me i was cute but after talking for 2days he started telling me ab his old crush and the mention his other crush from my school and if ik her he a really good person tho and we found her and it was one of my best friends so like they started talking cause i introduced them and i regret it and i made up a story ab him asking for her social pretending random dude but it wasn't him and it would make the connection connect so i think im in the wrong should i confess to it im scared idk why i did it shoukd i js continue to lie
i don't want to die yet i don't want to be miserable every minute of my life, i can't control this. I eat up myself from inside everyday, there's nothing left yet i continue to eat away at nothing. I really can't do this man
real, i feel like im being productive then i just feel like im being a lazy piece of shit that should die. im not getting this done. im not going to be able to survive on my own or be a proper adult.