7/10, can change

I remember my first wlw relationship. I was in 4th grade while the girl I was seeing was in 5th grade. She first confessed to me, and I was desperate for a relationship at my young age and really curious about what it feels like to date a woman, so I said yes. She gave me cards filled with K-pop lyrics about loving somebody and stuff. I was really into the thought of physical touch, so I'd kiss her on the cheeks. It all went downhill when I realized I actually had a crush on multiple people except her, so I broke up with her. The day later, at lunchtime, people informed me she had cried in the bathroom. And since I was worried about her despite not having feelings, I went there to see her. She came out of the bathroom with puffy eyes nd stuff (snot too) and just looked me in the eye and she said something about how she'll change. I didn't really know how to feel about at the time, but I gave it more thought and concluded I was into people being desparate for me. And so, despite being ex's, I visit her classroom to greet and tease her. The fact that all of the people I had a crush on were all really good friends with her too. My ultimate crush was definitely my chronically offline best friend I manipulated by saying kissing, hugging, etc... was completely normal just so she would be okay when I do that. I even taught her how french people greet each other. (Lmk if u want more experiences, i still have 3 more)