Yaoi kinda changed my perspective
I had depression since I was 9, and it hasnt stopped since. Most of the causes for my depression is: annoying family issues, self worth, bullying that went so deep, my only friends betraying me, and basically living itself. But i had a mental breakdown because of my family and got called by my mom, a wanna-be victim. And its kind of ridiculous to say the reason as to why but I wouldn't be crying if that was JUST the reason. It was because of built up emotion and anger to see myself getting ordered to help my family while my siblings were just being a chud. And the reason was- my mom called me useless after I couldn't find something after looking everywhere. And then a few weeks after that I read One Room Ta and this one specific panel, i forgot the exact words... but Jinghyeon saying something about how generalizing stuff? Sorry, It's been a while since I've read that manhwa. But yeah. Maybe it's what normal people do? Nornal things to feel like?
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Well I hope I don't want to say anything wrong or something hurtful on accident, but I think that it's normal to have sometimes feel sad, or think ur worthless, or have those things. Its more common in my opinion You're not wrong to feel like this, ur feelings are ofc always valid. I think there is always a different perspective or side of things but that doesnt mean i you should just accept it as it is, tbh ur parents lowkey seem rly unapologetic and not even trying to see ur way of things so in this situation ur feelings make complete sense, it honestly would be weirder if you didnt feel this way. I dont know what u specifically mean about generalizing things but rather than saying normal its more of something that is common, everyone probably hurt someone without meaning to rly badly tho ur parents seem to do it on purpose BUT I hope you atleast have someone to talk to things about or vent, its better than keeping it all swallowed up. Again if i said anything rude or misinterpreted anything i apologize.
I dont recall lots of times being happy other than reading good manhwas and people finally noticing me. But yeah it's pretty normal these days