does this count as parasocial?

i was watching a video of EJ and Nicholas appearing in a babysitting show on youtube the other day and i genuinely felt envious of the toddler they were looking after... like imagine just a bunch of handsome men paying attention, feeding and playing with you and all you have to say is goo goo ga ga or some shit but then i got a reality check and was like that's fucking weird. anyways i told some of my friends this and they said "don't say this out loud in front of other people okay?" so i lwk had to come here...