Been bullied ?

I never got bullied .. i dont know why .. not to brag but everyone liked me .. they thought i was cute and kind .. even tho im super dark and when i show my real personality they get scared .. i wish i was bullied .. i want to hurt someone and be justified .. im pretty tiny but so strong .. i always win in arm wrestling .. i was almost bullied in 6th grade .. and i stabbed the girl who did with a pen .. She was bleeding like hell .. it felt so good .. she went to the nurses office .. but she never bullied me again and she didn't tell the principal .. i was confused like wth .. people find it weird that im into hurting others .. and that every other girl is into make up and stuff and im into sports and knifes :|