Tried to off me self

Have tried to since I was in year 7 and I'm 20 now and still actively try to whilst I'm out my head. Started therapy recently and trialling different meds, but when I'm PMDD-ing, I genuinely go off my head so bad and can't even rationalise, so it comes as an automatic thing.....unfortunately.

My parents tell me frequently I shouldn't take anti-depressants because I can "just get over it" but like- they're the ones that got me traumatised in the fitted place lmaoooo.

Now whilst I'm sane off mind, I'm an active person who eats healthy and works out, with a lot of coping mechanisms, but I still feel really shitty sometimes. And them for the two weeks I'm off my head.....well I struggle to even get out of bed