Birthday curse

Is it just me or why does every birthday get worse and worse over time.
“It’s a big important day bc u get alot fun from it”
Buddy i cant even tell what type of situations that happens on my birthday that have been the worse.
I remember i cried in my birthdays alone and being sad because something had bad happened.
Its like i can never seem to get this loophole ever brah.
The only good birthday I had was when i was 9. 10 and above sheesh man the worst.