i got sexually harassed a bunch of times as a kid and teenagers which is probably normal for most women. it never got to penetration, just touches and sometimes trapping me in a corner so i can’t run.
i don’t know if im wrongly using that as an excuse but intimacy scares me now and i have had a boyfriend because everyone brings up sex at some point. i don’t even want to kiss or anything. the idea disgusts me. i don’t know if i’m being conservative or those experiences made me view sex as disgusting. i don’t know.
but anyways i’m turning 22 this year and everyone keeps asking about my boyfriend and i have none and it feels pathetic. it is pathetic.
Everyone is different. Having a partner is not what defines your success. Focus on your future and your friendships. Society always places an emphasis on your relations with men because of the systems that are put into place. reply
