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so me and this guy have started dating. he's got me head over heels for him. only issue is he lives in a coaching centre. he can only call me like 3 times a week max. and i might see him like once or twice a year if im lucky but i said yes without considering shit. anyway for me to like lessen the pain of separation clutching at my chest????
share ur exps with long distance too. that would help me alot

video on my fyp about a skinny girl saying its as bad and someone sayign she's wrong because fatshaming comes from a place of disgust while the other comes from a place of jealousy

what yall think. i think fatshaming's kind of worse because the other one aligns with beauty standards modern ones atleast

i have a life threatning exam tmrw. idk if im cooked. would love to hear some stories to laugh. please please?

anyways guys i have passed HS and now am having , you guessed it, an existentional crisis. I am lowkey highkey all key insane, doing some crashcourse for some engineering exams rn(last thing i want to be doing) and realized i wasted 18 yrs on this terrific rock in space, guys so im just venting ranting all that jizz BUT NOW WITH NEWLY FORMATTED BULLET POINTS.

1. i want be an actor like i want to be famous(either or kind) yes this is a childish dream yes im grasping at straws, yes i have a weird plan, smh grab a college in a casting area and start auditioning. maybe try as a model first(im 5'9) and then yk keep on keep on going maybe land some things ahahaha somebody sedate me. anyways yea i want to be that one in a million.

2. i want to just idk be happy, if god would gimme a stick to make me forget all my wretched desires and dreams so i could be a robot who could study n work that's also ok.

3. i need to re start therapy with a decent therapist this time, i need meds for the ADHD in my veins ts crazy atp, got 0 attention span anol. anyways yadaya.

4. I have found i literally do not care for love romance etc, id be happy to have sex but yea can't imagine committing to all that. genuinely dont see that as a goal or something to have.

5. I want to be amazing. I wanna be STARLIGHT ANYA. get me? im kidding guys.
6. I want to start believing in myself. this is such a big ASK.

7. get rid of religious guilt cos omfg i hate it

ok yea these r all normal things to want but they're so torturous to not haveeeee. byeee(๑•ㅂ•)و✧

so like . we been having issues and stuff. maybe ill elucidate another day but like i found a picture of a girl he used to like and like he had asked her out and stuff(she said no) and like they're still friends .(she has seen him like 3 times this year while im at 0) anyways she's literally a goddamn goddess . she's popular . she's smart etc. meanwhile me dude. oh lord i cannot describe how UGLAY i feel when i see her. im slightly not normal(dont wanna classify myself since no diagnosis except depression and anxiety have been made by a professional) but yea to give u a hint. im tall 5'8. i have short hair that i keep in line myself because im averse to barber shop experiences(i dont enjoy the process and its expensive )(we can afford it but i dont want it ig) anyways to
give u a clearer picture of me. i literally get mistaken for a man if i show upto school in PE clothes. if i wear a labcoat? then its over(i know this because a guy has accidentally thrown his arm and stuff over my shoulder thinking i was a dude). im not exactly thin. im not obese. i wear glasses(the other girl doesnt) even her name is prettier than mine. she's short cute and has good fashion sense while i dress up in jackets most of the time. i do not own any feminine tops as i dont really look nice in them(i buy them but i cant bring myself to wear them in public due to how fucking ugly i look) and i dunno man. IM COOKED for this man. like no other man fr comparing to him for me and i dunno it just hurts that im so ugly.
tips appreciated

So i have had a crush on a guy since last year of school. Guy is so talented at art and quite literally the most popular guy in my grade and I KNOW I GOT NO CHANCE OK GUYS . i aint popular or really pretty. But ive liked him for a year and i want to get over him and i feel like shit...

so tips to either get over him or get with him are welcome

so yea i fucked up bad and need to earn like 60 dollars within a month or so. i had these headphones(i didnt want them as they were expensive and i know with my adhd i was cooked) so yep i ended up loosing them. they were a gift. and i didnt have anything else to use. i tried being careful. my dad is going to kill me when he finds out(im not joking) and my mom refuses to help even though ive begged her and assured that ill pay the money back when i get a job but yea no im fucked.
so any way to earn money? seriously guys. please no OF suggestions and im just a student of 17.

the orc's bride. i couldn't survive past 2 pages

im not a hater at all bruh, i liked daniella and gnarly and i was excited for pinky-up. internet girl wasnt a groove for me but omg what is ts . im genuinely confused??? WHO IS WRITING THESE LYRICS. i'm sorry but the weird lyrics thing worked once and now is so overused.

does it grow on u