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And it's sucking mine rn/j
I js wanna vent.
As much as I love my cat and she's my #1 reason to keep on living, I can't stop thinking about killing myself
I have her sleeping right beside me, her warmth, and her little tiny sounds when she stretches, and breathes make me so calm, but it also makes me feel the guilt you get when you realize even w all this, you still wanna die
I now these thoughts are temporary, they'll eventually go away, and I'll probably continue on living life as if that thought has never crossed my mind
But then I think about how even if I get better, even if I take medicine, even if I go to therapy, depression never really goes away, you can't really cure it forever
I'll live life with the constant thought haunting me in the back of my head, but ig for now I'll settle for taking a nap w my cat again

I've been thinking abt this a lot, but man, do I fucking hate myself for being a hopeless romantic
I've read and watched anything romance related ever since I was a kid
Telenovelas, mangas, animes, animated and irl series, and it's definitely my favorite genre straight, yuri, bl, I don't caaaareee, and also I think that's why I js love shipping sm, bc it's fun and all
But that has definitely made me a hopeless romantic, I know I gotta be realistic and not indulge myself into thinking that life is like a movue and I'm gonna find the love of my life in a bookstore or something like that, but is it bad to js wish it was like that
I know there's the day after a "happy ending" and even if you fall in love or you have a partner, does not mean everything is gonna be in rose colored glasses, I really do, but at the same time I can't give up on the idea of a cute safe healthy romantic relationship w constant gestures and reassurance
I literally have to take breaks when I read shoujo manga like a sign of affection bc of how freaking cute they are, I even cry when cute things happen bc I'm very sensitive
I feel like being a hopeless romantic or js a romantic person nowadays is kinda hard
Like, people would either call you a simp if you're a guy, or that you're corny and cringey
BUT THAT'S PART OF IT, showing off your vulnerable side to this one person bc you LOVE them and trying new things for them, BC U LOVE THEM
Small things matter, paying attention to little details abt your partner matters, surprising them w gifts or cards is so important to me and it's js so infuriating when ppl think that "js gave her a like in her ig post" IS ROMANTIC?!?!?!?@?@
I hate that situationships are now a thing, BRO, I'M NOR WASTING MY TIME IF YOU DONT WANT ME, JS TELLLLLL MEEEEEEEEEEEE

How much dih could a woodchuck suck if a woodchuck could suck dih

Most babies in manwhas look like that one image of superman as a kid
Like why are they so ugly
The only cute one is the one from Our Sunny Days, it's simple and literally two dots and a line
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See? Cute

Man, I feel like lately, bc I don't have that much to do, I've consumed every type of media that exists and I'm still so bored
I read manga, comic, books, fanfics, even twt AUs, I watch animes, live action series, watch cartoons and adult animation, watch live action and animated movies, same w series, watch youtube videos daily, listen to music constantly, listen to podcasts sometimes, play video games and watch gameplays, idk tiktoks counts¿?
I truly feel like I'm in so many fandoms to the point that I get overwhelmed by all content and fanart, so give me recommendations to overwhelmed myself more w more content wth

Is it normal to feel grossed out when a guy flirts w you??? Or like when you're talking to a guy and you know he's interested in you and you're not
I just feel like ugh, idk how to explain it, but is it normal
Like, I'm bi, and girl presenting, I've dated guys, and girls before, but lately I feel uugghhhhh

HAVE YALL SEEN THE NEW TRAILER FOR THE NEW FRANBOW AND LITTLE MISSFORTUNE GAME?!,!?!??!!,?!,!?!?!!??!,!?!,!,!,!,!?!,!?,!?!;!?,+,+
A GAME, WITH BOTH OF THEM
THE WORLD IS HEALING AND SO WILL I

In all seriousness, I don't know how
I've always been skinny, but other's tell me I'm "too skinny"
I've asked a couple of times here and there and all they tell me is "js eat more"
But I think my problem is that I don't eat a lot of protein, like I get kinda nauseous if I eat a lot of meat, chicken is ok, and ion like fish that much, idk man I really like how vegetables are crunchy
And also, if I'm trying to gain weight, does that mean not exercising?
And like, should I also get protein powder and put in all my meals or what?

Cats and dogs bc I'm bored bro

Can't sleep and I'm going insane
Talk to me or vent or give me reccs, whatever

Are there any omegaverse stories where the omega aborts the baby and lives a happy life without baby trapped kids?

Today was my first time cosplaying and omfg
My feet hurt, my head hurts, my forehead hurts, my eyes hurt, but it was fun overall, ppl took pictures w me and I bought so many stuff!!!
But omg it's tiring, the first 2 hour I already got tired

That's literally it, I don't wanna be negative, but lately I don't seem to enjoy watching videos, nor tiktoks, or reading
So I tried re watching series that I know I love and make me feel better, but that doesn't work either, I go outside, and I still feel, numb¿?
Idk what to do or if it will ever go away
What should I do

Say good night to my cat, she's sleeping now

Would you ever give someone a second chance after they've cheated on you?

HAS ANYONE HERE SEEN THE SERIES YET?!?!?!?!?!?!?!,!?,!!,
For those who don't know, the creator of bojack horseman made a new series called Long Story Short and it's about a Jewish family and it is soooooooo good
It made me cry and I have no one to talk abt this omfg
I love bojack horseman, is my favorite comfort show and I've seen it like 15 time no kidding, and like 4 years ago, before the new series came out, he said in an interview that he wanted to make something different to bojack horseman, but omg it totally has that essence of rawness and sadness and healing and omggg
It was so good, my mind is in so many places
Omg.
I'm a hardcore bojack horseman fan and I wasn't expecting for the series to be in the level of BJH, but omg it's at that level and I cannot wait to obsessed with it and watch analisis of the episodes and rewatch them
So, spoilers ahead for anyone that wants to watch the show bc I wanna so yap about it
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Ok, first of all, a similarity that I noticed right away was the fact that in every episode(there's only 10 btw) the intro changes depending on the character they're gonna be talking about in that episode, and js like BJH mini things that are happening during that season, they'd added them to the characters in the intro and also change the intro in every season according to what bojack was going through, so that's fun
Secondly, I wanna talk about the characters:
- Yoshi
As the youngest brother he feels left out of the whole siblings banter, he's very much like a Todd, but if Todd were to be a little more conscious, like season finale of BJH kind of Todd, but I like that, they don't talk that much abt him, so we, as the viewers, don't know that much about him either, even after a whole episode was centered in him, all we can say is that he gets into silly adventures by being himself and sometimes he messes up, very silly and clumsy like, but one thing about him is that even though he's still Jewish, like his whole family, he ends up following more the path of orthodox judaism, and he talks about how he feels safe and he finds answers in that belief, his mother doesn't agree with this, just as how she normally doesn't agree with anything he finds interesting or anything he likes, but at the end of that episode, she tries to, which is a very rare instance of this different view we get so see of their mother.

- Shira
First of all, incredible representation of a queer character that is not centered on her whole deal being queer, she has a personality, she has problems with her family without homophobia, etc
Now, about her. I first wanna talk about her relationship with her brother. They're kinda awkward because of the grudge and trauma she feels towards his older brother, but she doesn't necessarily hate him, and they know that, it shows that they care and they even say it in a way, with the "Hey...yk" and "Yeah, I know, you too"
They don't know how to communicate with each other, knowing how it was even impossible for them to talk to their mother without her turning everything into an argument, but as their own person and as family they try to stay in touch and talk more and rely more on each other as they grow, cs family is all we have, and it seems they get closer after their mother's death
It really does show how they're more close with each other than they are with Yoshi, but not to the point of telling each other everything.
She's a great character w a strong personality, and her relationship with her mother in complicated, I feel like its that phrase of "as a woman I empathize with my mother, but as a daughter, I cannot forgive her"
Like the show does show how as a mother she cares about all her children, but she also criticizes everything they do, and wear and use and say, but she still loves her and misses her, we can see this in the episode "Shira can't cook", where she does everything she can to replicate her mother's recipe, and in her mother's recipe book we see a little note about the knish and how she only does it the way Shira likes it. They may not be the the best ones on telling each other how much they care and love for each other, but they both try their best to show it.

- Avi
Now, he's my favorite character and I hate how much I relate to him
He's insecure, but outspoken on his opinions and thoughts on anything; ever since he was a kid he didn't have that much friends and he likes different things from what was popular at the time.
Again, his relationship with his sister is a little rough, but they get along pretty well, even when they were kids they would talk about their mother and how she was, together as siblings do, but he has a lot more healing to do with himself that his sister pointed out that he hasn't even noticed before his sister told him.
About his mother, omg I have so much to say.
He doesn't hate his mother, I don't think so, but he dislikes her, he can't talk about anything with her because she either says she's the victim of the situation or storms off after turning it into an argument, she doesn't listen to him the most out of all siblings, even though she says she loves him, in one episode it shows how he's not ready to say that yet, even as his son
He moves out somewhere kinda far from where their parents live and he never checks out on them, he lives an agnostic life, which his mother doesn't approve, bc he was raised Jewish, and I feel like this is a way to cope for him to not have in any way similarity or relation to his mother. Having this kind of hatred of judaism or at least ignorance in the traditions, he even mentions that he doesn't feel anything when he used to do them. He's the one that holds a grudge the most, it's a complicated relationship. But he's willing to try and change and communicate if his mother would ever give him a chance to do so.
There's this one episode that stood out to me the most, about their mother's birthday, there's so many people like attending their mother's party and people go on stage and talk about how amazing she is and how she changed their life, but Avi hearing all this, is impossible for him to believe it, he only knows this one version of his mother that is controlling, the one that yells, the one that makes everything about herself, the one he can't even communicate with because she won't listen to him, he hates in a way and feels like everyone is lying because he only has bad experiences with his mother, he loses an opportunity with this girl he's been talking with the whole night because he cannot believe how she was an inspiration and an incredible person for everyone, but him. And I feel like this is part of his whole deal, the fact that there are some things for him to accept or even move on from, because he still holds a grudge and a kind of love and hatred towards his mother, like that one phrase of 'the good place' where Eleanor says "Why does Patricia get that mom?! If Donna Shellstrop has truly changed, then that means she was always capable of change, I just wasn't worth changing for"
He felt betrayed that everyone knew a side of his mother he has never seen, and it made the idea that maybe even strangers to him knew more about his mother than he knew about her, and in the final episode we see how much he cared for her, as far as going through someone else's clothes to steal something that belonged to his mother, which I think it was in a way for him to revindicate himself as her son for everything he's said and done to his mother, and that's why he's so hung up on stealing that. He reminisces about her and misses her and wishes he could've said more before she passed away, because he clearly cared, but didn't know how to show her or even comfront her, without again, turning it into an argument
He's an amazing father though, he talks and supports on everything his daughter wants, he cares about her safety and interest and friends and tries to always be there for her!
I could say more, but my fingers got tired, but if you've read until here, WATCH THE SHOW, ITS REALLY GOOD, OR EVEN WATCH BOJACK HORSEMAN, AND IF YOU ARE A FAN, GIVE ME YOUR OPINION BYEEEEEE

When I eat yogurt it feels like I'm eating Elmer's glue but strawberry flavored

Istg, I feel so anxious whenever it rains, I hate storms, the heavy wind, the lightning, even js light rain, I hate it
My mind goes instantly into thinking abt floods and accidents and I js feel depressed and anxious all the time, specially if someone I know it's outside, I keep thinking abt what could happen to them
It even scares me to drive when it's raining

So, how has been everyone's year so far???

Do you guys wanna see pictures of my cat?, bc there's so much rage baiting these days