
credits to @Tiramisu for sharing the link but its here
https://forum.novelupdates.com/threads/please-dont-eat-me-saha.102123/page-3
its a lot to read for sure but its confusing thats for sure, which is why I didn't drop this yet

no problem its already posted in the topic list ( @Tiramisu posted it first) in a novel update forum (link above)
The whole relationship is a little toxic imo and...
SPOILER
She’s still planing to run away. Zahid is aware of this. That’s why they make a bet, which one would win. Zahid wants to make Ertha fall for him to make her not to leave him, but when Ertha confesses, he isn’t satisfied because it seems Ertha still wants to run away.
She makes a negotiation with Niacal (another kingdom where the earth wizard lives) secretly from Zahid, to give her and her younger siblings to stay when she run away.
she also makes an agreement with Princess Diana (the princess hates royal family so much because they’re all mad, and I can confirm IT’S TRUE, they’re all mad, that’s why Diana wants to destroy them). Her plan is helping Ertha to run away. She will accuse Zahid as Aurantium’s worshiper (which is not allowed), then if Zahid who was a strong person in the military for the Empire is gone, she thinks Niacal will wipe out Bahalun Empire
^this one I copypasted from the link, @Vardalynn posted it

ikr... goshhh. Plus, I read somewhere (not sure if its legit) that
SPOILER:
Ertha felt betrayed when Zahid ATTEMPTED to eat her (In the end Zahid didnt do it because he second guessed himself or something, but still, he wanted to right?).
Gosh, the whole relationship is a mess but what do u expect from a psychopath like Zahid? T^T
the spoilers made me depressed