
Personally I would have been so intrigued as to why people are liking the plot sooo much if it sounds so toxic-ish in the synopsis. One of the main catches in the story is that Yuder is an unreliable narrator, i.e. he has memory gaps and doesn't know everything. The way the story builds and unfolds and we have revelations along with the protagonist is actually very satisfying. That's what keeps the reader hooked. "Oh he seems good, why would he have killed him before? What would have happened? How will this new information change the flow??" All this is also an important factor of this particular story. As a fellow reader, I would have liked you not knowing the spoilers and enjoying the story thinking about the unknown possibilities and reasons ╥﹏╥
I came here all excited after reading the synopsis and finding out this novel had a manhua adaptation. But then it sunk in that, after he had a sexual/romatic (idk) relationship with the ML in his previous life, he killed him to achieve whatever he wanted to achieve, and after his reincarnation, he STILL wants to use the man. (without killing him this time cuz now he'd be more useful alive ofc) I'd have no problem with that, if the man wasn't supposed to become the ML. With all that mix of (I'm guessing) "suppressed guilt" and maybe a bit of "pity", I can't believe that kind of relationship will fare well, or feel genuine to me. With that cold and unfeeling face of his to boot, it makes it all the more hard for me emphasize with this MC, and later cheer for the "romance", which is the biggest reason I wouldn't be able to pick up this work in the end. ^^'
They could have used any ML, why choose one he used and threw away (stabbed with his own hands)?
Life is so sad, and I thought I'd found something good to read and enjoy for once. That's too disappointing. x)
Like an insightful famous actress has said "Weird... Weird." Nothing else to add. ^^