I actually cried while reading this. Like physical tears all because of how her father treats her. I know I probably shouldn't sympathize with her since she has done all those things in the past but all that happened because society and the people that are supposed to provide her with love, care and reassurance have misguided and mistreated her which drove her to insanity. I really hope in this life she can gain more confidence.
The misunderstanding between her and Rutger is eating me alive. She can just time travel to see what actually happened and I also think the reason why he wasn't talking to her was because he was ashamed of his voice and was programmed by the adults around to think that everyone hates his voice(stutter). She can also time travel to the moment before her second husband and child went missing to see what happened to them i don't know. But I suspect the emperor was the one who sent them away.











Gurl STFU. U CANT hand over a human being. R u dumb? And it's been 3 months already. MOVE ON