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man, i love this. The twist and twist, the author didn't do the original couple as fated. They saw their 'real' fated partner, which will look like a big twist in the story if the two of them were to end up with the other two, but at the same time it's not really a big twist because if you look at it, them ending up with the other is a typical 'fated' partner story than the original couple which is not 'fated'. Idk, the twist and twist just fascinates me.

I so love this kind of story! fiction mixed with heavy reality. But i have 2 questions, what happened at the end? why do people keep saying it's sad? Chris didn't die right? (idk about Adam). Did something happened that i missed? Also, Is Adam and Cain just the same person? that's what i get from the story.

Is this worth reading? i saw both the rape and the "i'll rape you in return" part, and im kinda tired of rape then fall in love/ "i actually love you so i hurt you" type of plot. The thing that can make me continue this is a unique twist..so is it better to continue this?

It's the "rapes him b/c he loves him" trope, and usually I'm 100% against reading those types of yaoi mangas, but this is one of my few exceptions. I think part of the reason why that is because it's actually acknowledged that rape /did/ happened and pain was caused, instead of it being portrayed as show of "possessiveness", though I won't deny there is some romanticism depicted here and there. I personally enjoyed the manga, it does hold a close place in my heart, and I do think it's worth reading, but I totally understand that not everyone will feel the same way I do and will view both characters as being the lowest of the low.
In the end it's up to you to decide whether or not to read it. It's not a long manga, so if you do end up reading it and not liking it, you wouldn't have wasted hours of your life or anything :)
Bruh, are they really childhood friends? is confession such a big deal at this point? they acting like they've just known each other for a year. If they're close then it's not gonna be a big deal, they can just say "oh im sorry i don't feel the same, i still respect your feelings though" or "i'm sorry, i'm not ready yet". If they really are childhood friends, they would aid each other, but if they're not 'that' close, then i understand. But knowing they've known each other for so long, i think they'll know how their communication would work.