Yves Skywalker's Things

I honestly do not know how to describe the situation m in rn but lemme go into details.

There was this guy in middle skool whom I liked a lot. He was deskmate & guy bestie. But things changed once we entered senior high skool. We drifted apart but I still liked him.

I was ‘pretty sure’ he ‘had’ some feelings for me too but as of 2020, it’s been years. Also I heard from a friend that he was dating some other person from other skool. So I decided to move on.

Now here m in a new class standard/ skool yr, in a different skool... in a different country & a different continent. There was this guy from my class who came to this exact skool last yr & we’ve been helping each other out for quite some time. He is a year younger than me but age rly doesn’t matter to me.

I realized my feelings for him thru a silly dream I saw. Then I was so flustered by it that I ignored him for almost 2 months! I was afraid he would find out bcuz he’s quite smart & intuitive. On top of that, his older bro is in my class! But anyway, I’ve been meaning to confess to him bcuz y not? Also bcuz he might move to a different skool next year. & after I graduate next year m going back home country.

I m pretty sure that he likes me back but he has his walls up so high that sometimes I doubt it. I have those sort of intuition bcuz I’ve liked many different ppl with different personality b4.

I talked to an old friend of mine recently & she told me i should practice how to confess. We have close guy friends & I was to prank them by telling them I like them. It was to improve my courage (?), was what my friend told me. I went with it. The person online on my list, she said I need to practice on them. I swing both ways but out of all the ppl who could’ve been first on my online list... it had to be my guy bestie from middle skool...

I told him I like him & all & he shocking responded as ‘what if I told u that I like u?’ I was shocked bcuz I was sure he moved on from me & I wanted to keep contact with him just as frenz. my dumbass self blurted that it was a prank. We then chatted some more & later he told me that he really likes me & always will. He said some pretty depressing stuff & he told me how he has changed & that he doesn’t deserve me. I dunno y but it moved my heart & my resolve is sorta weak now.

Here’s the question: WHO SHOULD I CONFESS TO? WHO SHOULD I LIKE? OR SHOULD I JUST NOT DO ANYTHING & B FRENZ WITH THEM? SHOULD I STOP TALKING TO THEM?

- Pls help a pal out?