
*Gasp* Talent shows.....I loathe it as I don't have any talent to show aside from being a big disappointment

For that, if I can give you my advice, is that you try something different to change how you feel (new hobbies that you didn't dare to try before, meeting friends to do anything...) but my number one advice is to look for help. A psicologist will help you to find the inner reason for your unhappiness, and work from there to come back to normal.
Those feelings you have are usual to appear in the most unsuspected moments, all of us had gotten them, but not all of us have found the way to get rid of them..
Let us see if this male birb has a chance with our FL birb against sir Val. Would be a plot twist if the male brib is another ML