
I quite liked this, but it still feels kinda weird to me. Maybe bc I still don't have the adult perspective on things since I'm a minor but, I wonder, any of you adults, do y'all see this like another normal story or do y'all have that a little bit of weird feeling.

I am very adult; I mean no disrespect for the author or anybody's fantasies and I'm absolutely aware that my overthinking is embarrassing but I ~HATE~ this story. I finished reading it under a spell of cringe. I guess the core of my shock is that sensei is a man that's DONE, there's nothing left to achieve so he chooses to keep his emotions and lifestyle stagnant. No dynamic relationships, no updated professional connections, no desire for novelty... he's just a smooth talker. He "fell in love" because he got addicted to hoarding a young man's attention. Yul is literally still growing. His life is in forward motion in all aspects and the narrative wants to trick you into believing he was somehow a brilliant self sufficient guy but also in dire need of a nurturing mentor to enhance his career via romantic commitment. That's creepy. Ultimately I just can't understand how Yul would ever benefit from upgrading a reliable collaborator to boyfriend with mobility issues. They both deserve better. Sensei will become a vampire feeding off Yul's devotion. Yul will ruin his romantic paradigms catering to a man that will never match his energy levels. Alarms go off in my head, it's so stupid but I can't help it. Trashy smut manga with age gaps show horny people in wacky scenarios. When there's little to none connection to rational thought I can have fun reading about some rich grandpa falling in love with a young hot ghost librarian or whatever but this one being so earnest in tone made my skin crawl.

I just realized how much crap I wrote goddam..
I'm sorry for RAMBLING, should've gathered my thoughts before that rant because I'm not trying to convince anyone that the manga is "wrong". Whether it's flawed wrting or not isn't important. All that nonsense above is me reading too much in between lines, adding my pov and petty much constructing a different wider story in my head. I'm just "triggered", please like what you like and keep reading stuff you enjoy.