
You gotta stop beating yourself up over that...he was gratefully happy that he didn't have to be alone anymore and he'll be overwhelming joyful to know that you stayed with him the whole time in the hospital. You have served your time you did a good thing. You didn't leave him in the snow....no matter what we (the readers) say we forgive you and understand you gotta believe it for yourself
After reading this several times I can confirm that it doesn't loose any passion with each read but is in fact the complete opposite