
Akiyoshi really has a feelings for minato.. It wasn't as simple as a friends.. So it made me cry when he choose to let go minato to naoki and remain as a friend for minato.. I love him eventhough he did those thing to keep naoki and minato away to each other (but I understand that)... And it's still kinda surprising to know that naoki was the bottom (although I'm expecting that)... It feels so refresing to read a BL like this... with no smut but overflowing with love and emotions.. Kinda felt bad for those people who doesn't like to read BL like this because they are only into smutty BL..

I like reading BL about cheating... But I only like to read it.. If it is about a seme cheating.. But if the uke was one who do the cheating. My anger with them is extremly oveflowing.. I could you cheat on someone who's very faithful for you and gentle with you.. So I think. I won't read it for the sake of my sanity..

I kinda felt sorry for kouichi... I know that he really love mitsuru.. But dude! You were missing for three months and when you finally came back you shamelessly told mitsuru that you are married out of the blue... Like, you were expecting him to just accept that eventhough you said it was only a show off marriage.. Just how twisted you are... Eventhough, I felt a little hurt when you let go mitsuru and left you for shougo. I was glad that he didn't ended up with you..

I've never felt so disgusted about myself getting hard.. in that shitty smut... My hands is shaking while typing this... Kyujin doesn't deserve jimin nor doyeol.. Good thing, he made the best choice for his life dumping both of them and live in that secluded area.. Rotting and suffering from those shitty things he done to those two.. I just hope, that the ending would have been tragic.. Like, he choose to kill himself feeling guilty for all the thing he done.. This would have made this BL more worth reading for.

October... It was october when I first read this painful manhua.. I couldn't move on.. The pain I felt after reading this was beyond to get over with.. After 3 months.. I decided to read this again.. It was december.. I couldn't move on so I decided to read this again hoping that it would not be as painful as the first time I read this.. But I was wrong. It's still painful. I know I'm being stupid... I even read the novel version, hoping that the novel had different ending unlike this manhua.. But the novel was more painful.. Then after almost 4 months.. I read this again.. So it is my third time reading this.. But it's still painful.. So painful. How I wish it was dr. Ai who zhishu met first... His first love.. And his forever love.. And not that asshole aldoph.. Though, I'm pitying him.. I know is suffering.. Blaming himself for the time he treated zhishu badly. Ignoring him.. Cheating on him.. Neglecting him.. It was his all fault..if he was only satisfied for what he had befote..if he was not only a sex addict.. If he was not a toptier asshole.. Zhishu might still alive and kicking.. But I guess, there's nothing I can do. Deluding my self for those hopelessness.. I'm gonna come back here.. After several months again
This is so good.. I hope dajeong will completely cured live his life normally together with seohyun.. Huhuhuhuhu. Love this so much