I thought i could handle this, i cant handle sad stuff well but here I am crying my fucking eyes out. I am sad he never got to see the Jasmine bloom. But as he said i am glad he died while being treated well. So much pain for him Zhishu and for what.. I hope that if there is a next life or parallel world he will meet with the doctor and live a happy life. I really do. Hate the fact that i get attached to fictional characters like this. Now i will forever be thinking about this and crying. Idk i cried during the letter part too but that's not cause of Wj but cause of Zhishu. He really wanted to do sm stuff but he denied him all those stuff. Just i wish he was happy ughh. Fuck that seme he desveres all that pain and loneliness. Toyed with 2 people until they died. I hope Zhishu is now guarding Dr Ai's door ans around his home as a guardian while lighting up his parents grave and all
I wonder why people treat art as something bad and disgraceful to the society and something that's not worth of future when artists get literally paid with millions and millions. They can almost get more than what a doctor or any business man can get within a span on an year or even a month. Like stop looking down on creative ppl ffs. I bet they all jealous that they aren't that creative or talented. Istg stop being so narrow minded.
Past trauma is no way to be shitty to other people hands on!!... Just cause you have mental issues doesn't give you can excuse to be a cunt to others and treat them like shit. I am sorry you went through that or you're going through it but irl I would run away if I knew how Taehwan was really like ngl. Also he acts toooooo nice with other people too(if someome is really nice and way too nice that it seems unrealistic that's probably a red flag, RUN). Taehwan literally reminds me of a white washed strag
I have read hundreds of bl mangas, manhwas and manhuas but i remember that I never cried in any of those. I always wondered how people cried over some scenes and I didn't understand. I thought I was emotionally not that sensitive or sumn but irl i am actually a sensitive bitch. This made me feel stuff like idek, I was so deeply connected to the writing and the art style and everything. It's so freaking beautiful that I kept stalling without reading it just to not complete it. I wanna read this over and over again. The first couples relationship is my favourite. The connection over poems and all it was amazing and I genuinely want more. I freaking ugly cried throughout it. It was just amazing. A journey I would say God i might sound cringey but this is actually one of my favourite bls to exist now other than cherry blossoms after winter, whoose baby is it, hosiks story and my darling signed in. I literally wana read this again and again especially the first story










Why is this so short i want more.. I am trying to cleanse myself from the pain the 10 years where you loved me the most gave me
I know me too i know that i'm not supposed to cry when i read this story but yeahhh aaaa