this pissed me off. though im glad i kept reading cause it's at least getting better (my feelings about it at least lol). still, i know kiyoi was so much better than the rest of that particular friend group but it annoyed me so bad how hira loses all his self respect just for kiyoi. the way he kept narrating kiyoi's actions as "good" for him was a hard and frustrating read. at the start i was feeling bad for hira but how he acted eventually came across as creepy and desperate. though i appreciate how i realized midway why i got annoyed was similar to why kiyoi got annoyed when hira was just resigning himself to whatever he experienced
as much as i love his improvement to stand up for himself (well, not really for himself since it's for kiyoi lol) I don't vibe with the romance, if there's any, at all. it just seems to me that those feelings come from hira admiring kiyoi and wanting to be like him and those feelings eventually getting twisted because he never had proper social interactions with his classmates. I can't really see how this will develop into a healthy relationship.
if this was purely a story about a guy dealing with his stuttering and the bullying he experiences then I would've appreciated it more but the desperation and creep tendencies for the *romance* in it was a turn off. i acknowledge he uses this love as inspiration to do better for himself (see, the narration about him reaching out for and saving mr duckie) but the essence of it is just plain unhealthy. it really just rubs me the wrong way how that *love* was born from glorifying the shitty insensitive actions that kiyoi kept doing. it's toxic. he needs therapy, im being serious.
i hope hira realizes how kiyoi treated him especially in the beginning isn't the norm for kindness. the bar is too low it's frustrating. i know kiyoi is a good guy inside but i hope he tones down his insults and sharp tongue if ever they do start dating (the suicide dialogue in the first chap still makes me mad, i will never forget). and that along the way hira starts to not think so lowly about himself. it's my only hope for the relationship to stay healthy and for hira to experience a good social relationship
now don't get me wrong. i appreciate the storyline and it's not bad writing. i only have an issue with the characters and i dont vibe with whatever the fuck's happening between them currently lmao hoping for the best that it becomes better dynamic wise though
this definitely should have a psychological tag











is it weird that i want more? i know it started all messy but i love that hitoshi stands up for himself and all. i want more so i could see how their relationship gets better and all aaaaaaaa please even if it's 5 years from now i need at least an extra
There’s an ongoing second volume. I can’t find it on other sites, so we have to pay.
wait fr? can i ask since when it published?